Lovely (K.n.j + K.s.j)

33

Namjoon
(This was a few hours after the occurrence at chapter 31)

Hoseok held his hand so tenderly. Hoseok missed this. The two were at a cafe, catching up on all of the things they've missed.

"I missed this a lot Namjoon." Hoseok said as he held onto the youngest hand. Their hands fit so perfectly with one another, and Hoseok couldn't help but remember their past as kids. When they'd play with one another and when Hoseok first confessed. He missed those days.

"As do I Hoseok." Namjoon said, smiling. "You are my best friend after all. I shouldn't have left all those years ago."

Hoseok frowned. "Why...did you leave Namjoon?"

Namjoon took a sharp breath in. "I was forced to take this route Hoseok."

"By your parents? Why couldn't you tell them no-"

"They're dead." Hoseok's eyes widened. He knew that Namjoon's parents were the nicest people that anyone could come across. They didn't agree with him doing music, but he was allowed to do it either way. Namjoon told him that they were abroad all of those years ago. Why did he lie?

"W-What?"

"They died because of this job, but of course as their sole heir, I had to take charge." Namjoon took off the glasses he was wearing and looked at Hoseok dead in the eyes.
"Why didn't you tell me his?"

"I didn't want you to worry so much about me..."

"If you don't mind me asking...how...did they die?"

Namjoon let out a dry chuckle.
"Probably how I'll die someday soon if I'm not careful. My parents were sent on a job in Vegas. They were to infiltrate a masquerade party and kill the host, who was a dirt bag by the way." Namjoon drank his tea, soothing his dry throat. "Raping both young men and women alike."

"Anyway, he was killed by my parents. Mission accomplished, right? Wrong. He had bodyguards and my dad over looked it. He didn't see it coming, and my father is always careful. So both of them were shot by a group of guards and my team had to take their bodies secretly."

Hoseok couldn't reply. He didn't know what to say after that.

"And that's the story of why I'm not back at the underground rapping anymore, this is my life now Hoseok." Namjoon smiles sadly at the older. "And you're a cop, a good one too. I knew that was your dream when we were younger and I never got to tell you but, I'm really proud of how you turned out Hobi."

Namjoon smiles and Hoseok's heart starts to do its thing again, always beating quickly and the tips of his fingers growing cold.

"Either way Joon, I'll always stick by your side. Mafia boss or not, you're still my best friend so I'd do anything for you." Hoseok cupped Namjoon's cheeks and have him a quick kiss.

Namjoon couldn't help but smile, he really missed this. He missed being in a relationship, being with someone who he can just hold close. Even if it wasn't Jin, it was still nice.

"Thank you Hoseok."
Hoseok suddenly stood, taking a quick swig of his coffee and grabbed onto Namjoon's hand.

"Come on! Let's walk around. Yoongi Hyung knows I'm not going with them to the station. So let's use this time to explore, like how real couples do." Namjoon complied and walked with Hoseok, hand in hand.

What Hoseok didn't notice was one of Jimin's cronies watching them. Namjoon caught a camera flash, but he didn't want to disturb Hoseok's happy mood.

As they continued to walk hand in hand, Hoseok couldn't help but take in what was happening now. Namjoon was his. Even for a little while, it still felt surreal.  He let go of Namjoon's hand and went in front of him. 

"You don't have to respond with feelings okay? I just need to say this." 

"Okay Hoseok?"

Hoseok smiled and took a deep breath. 

"I love you Namjoon!" 

Namjoon was surprised really, he was about to respond until Hoseok held a finger to his mouth.
"Remember, you don't have to respond okay? Just let me do this." 

Namjoon sighed, and looked at Hoseok with a smug smile. 
"If you're going to do that, then I'm going to do this." Namjoon grabbed his arm and pulled Hoseok to a deep kiss. He knows this could maybe help him too with his feelings. But it felt so wrong to kiss another man other than Seokjin. He felt like he was cheating since he wore his ring and so did Jin. 

He parted their lips and Namjoon smiles at Hoseok and Hoseok just has this love struck look in his eyes, this won't heal him, but it'll make him fall more. 

"I love you too Hobi." 

'Don't say words you don't intend to keep, Namjoon.' Hoseok said to himself as he pulled Namjoon in for another kiss, before leaving for the hotel .