VANESSA'S POINT OF VIEW
♪♪ Been rehearsing for this moment all my life
So don't act surprise
If the feeling starts to carry me away... ♪♪
I'm so carried away with words. It's a melody to my ear and a supplement to my heart.
I am taking this long path through the end—where the man of my dreams is waiting for me, to be beside him now and forever, both of us under the grace of the Lord, brought together as one. There's no backing out.
My parents were on my side as I walk down this aisle. They were guiding me, just as how they guided me through all these years.
♪♪ On this day, I promise forever
On this day, I surrender my heart
Here I stay, take my hand
And I will honor every word I say ♪♪
I'm getting closer and closer to the altar. It's still a blur to see clearly who is my groom-to-be. Yes, I don't know who he is. But there's something inside of me saying that I should say 'I do'.
I recognize familiar faces. My friends, being so happy for me, are all smiling back.
Then I realized, there is someone missing in action. He's not smiling with my friends.
My brother poked my groom. My parents already let go of me and gave me to him. He turned around and as I reached the altar, I also reached for his hand when he reached for mine.
And my forever begins here.
♪♪ On this day...
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"Rain, Rain, Raiiiin!!!" Nagising ako sa katotohanan nang sumigaw si Vic. He's waving his hands to get my attention.
"Sorry. What were you saying again?" I asked.
Ugh. Kung bakit ba naman kasi apektadong-apektado ako sa panaginip na 'yon. Lagi na lang siyang nasa panaginip ko. Bakit? Hindi naman siya ang huling taong naiisip ko bago matulog ah.
Hindi nga ba?
"Kanina ka pa wala sa katinuan ah. Kanina ka pa natutulala. May problema ba?" Kuya asked.
Can I consider this a problem? Pero syempre hindi ko naman puwedeng idahilan 'to. Mamaya kung anong isipin ni Kuya.
"Wala. I was just spaced out. Nasaan na nga tayo?" Ngayon ko lang ulit naaalala ang totoong problemang nilulutas ko. This math problem.
Nagtuturuan kami since there is a long examination coming up. We have an hour of break before the next class starts.
Vanessa, focus. Mas matinding problema ang kakaharapin mo.
Ipinagpatuloy ni Kuya ang pagtuturo and I tried my best to understand what he was saying. And it was so weird na mas naiintindihan ko na ang math kaysa sa nararamdaman ko ngayon.
"Okay na? Naintindihan mo na ba?" Vic asked.
Alin ba Kuya? Yung math o yung feelings ko?
"'Yang derivatives? Oo. Sigurado ako. Naiintindihan ko na 'yan."
"Sige nga. Kung naiintindihan mo na, sagutin mo nga ako." Eric came out of nowhere. He pulled a chair beside me.
Sana may explanation din yung pagbilis ng tibok ng puso ko ngayon noh? Kaka-kape ko yata 'to. Nagpa-palpitate na ako.
"Sus. Eric. Kiyeme mo. Ni hindi ka nga nanliligaw, paano ka sasagutin? Palibhasa umiiwas ka na namang mag-perform ng 'Nobody' na naka mini-skirt eh. Hahaha." Rommie.
