Grown Man

Wrong

Jungkook took his hands off the sides of Jin's face and placed them down on either side of Jin on the bed, caging in the older.

He slowly got up as he began leaning forward causing Jin to begin leaning backwards. Soon enough, Jin was laying with his back flat against the bed and Jungkook was hovering over him, his elbows now on either sides of Jin's head on the bed, propping him up. His face was right above Jin's, their noses nearly touching.

The only thing that could be heard through the room was Jungkook's deep breathing. He was trying so hard to restrain himself, especially seeing his hyung under him like this. It did things to him that not even masturbating to thoughts of Jin could, it did things to him that he didn't even know were possible.

"Hyung," Jungkook finally broke the silence between them, "won't you let me kiss you?" He tilted his head to the side, cutely, and... innocently, which was quite ironic considering the fact that all the things he wanted to do to his hyung were anything but innocent. "Please, Jinnie hyung? I'll be gentle."

Jungkook lowered his hips so his area was touching Jin's. He wanted Jin to feel how hard he was for him, how much he wanted him.

He leaned his head down and began sucking on Jin's neck, licking and biting, as well.

"Please, hyung?" He asked, after separating his lips from Jin's neck.

Jin knew this was wrong on so many levels. The most important ones being the fact that he was still Jungkook's legal guardian and Jungkook was still a minor since he had just turned seventeen not too long ago.

He felt so dirty. How could he let this happen? How could he let things get to this point? He should have been firm and put an end to all of this the first time Jungkook asked if he could kiss him.

But why didn't he?

He decided to think about that later. Right now, he had to put some distance between himself and Jungkook before Jungkook did something—well, more things to him.

He pushed Jungkook off him before getting off the bed instantly and glaring at Jungkook.

"Hyung..." Jungkook called out but his voice was barely above a whisper.

Jungkook was now sitting up on the edge of the bed.

"What the hell was that?" Jin was pissed. He was angry that Jungkook had done all those things to him, but he was more pissed at himself for allowing it to happen.

He was the adult here, he should've acted like it. He felt so dirty for letting a seventeen year old touch him like that, and it showed. Disgust and repugnance painted his facial features and Jungkook took notice of that.

The younger lowered his head, he was immediately overrun with guilt. How could he have done that to his Jinnie hyung? After everything the older had done for him, was this how he repaid his kindness, by defiling him?

Originally, it wasn't Jungkook's intentions to be sexual with his hyung, but when Jin's face was in Jungkook's hands and Jin was staring at him with glossy eyes and his pink, plump, and luscious lips looked as enticing as ever, the moment just felt right. Everything felt right.

Jungkook criticized himself, he should have known better than to be sexual with his hyung.

That was just what Jin was to him: his hyung.

Nothing more.

Up until this moment, Jungkook had never thought that his love for his hyung was disgusting or wrong. To him, it was just love. He didn't care that they had a 12 year age difference, he didn't care that Jin was his legal guardian, he didn't even care that he called Jin's adoptive parents, "eomma" and "appa" and Jin's adoptive brother, Namjoon, "hyung."

But thinking about it now, 12 years was a huge age gap. Jin was still his legal guardian. Jin's parents loved Jungkook like a son and Namjoon loved him like a brother. The three of them saw him as family and he saw them as family too.

...That had to mean that Jin also saw him as his little brother, as his family, right?

How could he love someone when they had such a huge age difference between them, when he was practically that person's younger brother, when they were supposed to only have a hyung and donsaeng relationship with each other?

It's wrong.

I'm wrong.

I'm disgusting and messed up, and there's something seriously wrong with me.

Jungkook looked back up at Jin, only to see that disgust and repugnance were still adorning the older's features which confirmed to Jungkook all that he'd been thinking: that it was wrong for him to love his Jinnie hyung like that.

He got off the bed and ran out of the room then out of the house. He ran next door and knocked on the door non-stop until someone finally opened up.

It was Jimin.

"What the hell-" Jimin stopped when he saw the tear streaks on Jungkook's face as well as more tears streaming down his face.

"Jungkookie, what wrong?" Jimin queried as he pulled Jungkook into him in a tight hug.

"Hyung..." Jungkook said, in between his sobbing, "I think there's something seriously wrong with me."