Our Little Baby (BTS)

Overthinking

You were the type of person who doesn't like to show that they're sad. whenever you started feeling a type of way, you always kept those feelings to yourself. If the problem wasn't big then you would just let it roll off your back but when it was a situation that put you in a deeper hole then usual, you would keep it in until you got to a secluded place with only yourself. You've been like this all your life so it usually wasn't a shock to your brothers when you came home feeling a little more down than usual but this time, you let it slip a little more then you should have and had your emotions pretty clearly shown on your face.

Today it was the day before your best friend's birthday. Or well, you considered her your best friend and you honestly thought she considered you hers too. You've been planning this surprise birthday party for a couple of weeks now and you've been going around town to gather her some of her favourite things to put inside a little goodie basket for her present. All the contents in the basket totalled roughly about $120. You topped it off with some cute tissue paper just to make it look cuter than it already was. You were making your way into the restaurant and took a seat at the table you reserved for all your friends. One by one they all showed up and the table was filled with many conversations as you were all waiting for the birthday girl to appear. The jingle of the door brought all your attention to the front and there she was. Your best friend looking at all of you wide-eyed. The biggest smile erupted from her face as you all shouted surprise. The night progressed just as you planned it to and soon it was time for all the pictures. Not like all of you weren't taking pictures from your seats as the night went on but the time you've all designated to pictures.

It was getting late into the night so all your friends decided that it was a good time to start leaving. You called your oldest brother jin to come and pick you up once everyone else has left already. He soon arrived in front of the restaurant and you hopped in before he zoomed off again. While in the car, you were looking at all the pictures from the night to find a good picture of yourself with your best friend to post. You got tired of looking at all the pictures you took and decided you would choose them once you got home, so you opened up Instagram instead. The first thing you saw was the little icon that signals that your friend has posted something on their story. You clicked on it and saw your best friend and another one fo your friends in the photo. She posted a couple of the 2 of them together but none of the ones of you two. You usually didn't care about things like this but once you saw the little captions for one of the pictures, you felt a little tug on your heart.

"Us against the world! Love you bby <3" they are words she's never used with you. You started thinking about the night and realized that your "bestfriend" wasn't with you that much today. You've always had a fear of losing people and you are very possessive of your friends. When the slightest difference in their attitude is shown, it throws you off because then you start overthinking and play the worst-case scenarios in your head. The more your mind wandered with this topic, the heavier your heart felt. You've been feeling like there was a slight wall forming between you guys since the 2 of you don't see each other much now as you go to different high schools. This just made you feel as though it was a little confirmation that the wall was there and ready to push you apart. You let your emotions take the best of you and had the sadness inside of you displayed on your face for everyone to see. Thankfully enough, jin hadn't noticed during the car ride or when the both of you made your way into the house. Jimin greeted you once you got inside.

"Hey! How was the part-" he stopped himself once he saw the overwhelming sadness in your face.

"It was fine," you said as you made your way upstairs. You needed something to distract you before these emotions got out of hand so once you got into your room you took a towel and some clothes into the washroom to shower. The shower didn't help with much as you came out still a little upset. When you walked back into your room, you saw jimin waiting patiently for you on the bed. You put your stuff away and sat beside him looking at the wall that was opposite of you.

"You wanna tell me what's wrong?" he asked, staring at the same wall as you were.

"Not necessarily but I'm pretty sure you won't leave until I tell you," all he did was nod his head.

"I don't know, I just feel like I've put so much time and energy into the relationship between me and (Y/B/F/N) and she doesn't even see me as a best friend. I just wish she would put me on a higher scale of importance as I put her," You don't know how to put your feelings in words so when you started tearing up, you didn't know what to say. All you knew was that there was something inside that was eating at you. You started fanning your eyes when you felt the first teardrop fall and you honestly just wanted to smash your head into your pillow. That's exactly what you did. Jimin didn't say anything but just patted your back as your face was flat on your pillow. You were crying but you didn't want them to see even though he is your brother. He was about to speak but you cut him off. 

"Please leave. I just really want to be alone right now," you said but didn't know if h heard you since your voice was muffled by the pillow. Surprisingly he did though and got up to leave without hesitation. The night was tough as you were trying to push all your thoughts to the back of your mind. Nothing you tried worked. It was a sleepless night for you and you were pretty sure it was a sleepless night for jimin as well. 

So if you haven't noticed, this book is usually based around my experiences and just adding BTS to them to make myself feel better. This is basically what happened to me today and istg every time im upset I feel like it's the dumbest reason for me to be upset. anyways, I hope you guys are having a better day than me and I hope you enjoyed this very short and terribly written chapter.