Mine (Lashton)

Chapter 41 Shooting Star

Warning!!! contains scenes of violence and some scenes may be triggering.

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It was a simple thing. Life was what made you live and death is what ended every feeling in your body, destroys every nerve and makes all the body fail systematically. Which is why when I saw his life end, everything shut down for me. Not the way his did but mentally. When seeing someone that you had known as long as I knew him and someone that I had something that big in common with then there is bound to be a backlash when his heart stops. Of course the one that had chose me had been affected by what happened in the hallway that day but he tried not to show it. All that I knew is that we all had to bury one of our friends and that was the worst feeling in the world...~Luke Hemmings

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Ashton

I hated my life I'm not gonna lie.

After having a three way with Luke and Ryder I finally chose who I wanted to be with. I told Ryder that I wanted to be with Luke, he didn't take it well but I told him at least. Then I was all happy for a day, for like 10 hours I was flawlessly happy, I was on my way to tell Luke and then have hot dirty sex but no he and his family had gone away for the holidays and wouldn't be back until the first day of the new term...a cold shower would sting less. We hadn't talked since the three-way which I don't actually remember at all so any conversation that we would have or are going to have will be the most awkward situation I could ever find my way into. Great move Ashton you somehow managed to weird out everyone with your penis.

I stumbled into school on the first day back and everything seemed fine, everyone was still glancing in my direction, clearly the news hadn't circulated yet so either Kiera has lost her phone or she's too hung over from last night to get up this morning or both, I would be glad when everyone's attention would be back on someone else for a change. Not that I didn't like attention, actually that was a fucking lie because I hated everyone's eyes on me. I noticed Luke by his locker with a goofy smile on his face, and a girl flipping her hair giggling in front of him. Okay so I have sex with him and that somehow turned him straight again? That should boost my confidence in heaps. Sarcasm in case you didn't pick up one that. I waited until she wandered away until I walked over to him. What exactly do you say to someone in this situation, hey are you back to eating pussy or do you still do sword play? I don't think that I'm secure enough with myself to say that to him. Every footstep felt like an eternity as I walked over to him.

His smile faltered when he saw me walking down the corridor towards him, I saw the lump in his throat when he gulped down his feeling of nerves and puffed his chest out to try and look confident. Even though I could tell he was scared on the inside. His ocean blue eyes were on every step that I took down the corridor. Every sound that my shoes made when hitting the tiled flooring that stunk of lemon pledge mixed with bleach. "Hey" I muttered awkwardly, my face came into this weird shy smile that I didn't know I had in the cards. His eyes were darting anywhere but my eyes, I was starting to think that I had something on my face or something like that. He looked like he was going to throw up from me just talking to him, was the mere thought of me and him having a conversation that paining to him? That sickening to him? The colour drained from his face and he went as white as a sheet.

"Hey I have a class now" he quickly mumbled. In one swift movement he turned, closed his locker, maneuvered right around me and jogged off down the corridor with books under his arm clung close to his frame. What the hell was all that about? He avoided me like I was the plague. He deliberately went out of his way not to touch me, not even to make our skin brush a little like he always used to just to make sure that I knew he was there. He was like my safety blanket, I just had to know he was around. I can't tell him that I wanted him, that he was my choice over Ryder, that in the back of my mind I always knew that it was him. That we had been through everything life could possible think of throwing at you in the past two years and still come out the stronger for it. There was nothing like us. I couldn't really bitch at him though since I actually had history class now as well. I groaned and snatched my books out of my locker and stormed down towards the history classroom. There were a lot of profanities running through my head and I wasn't the cleanest of thinkers when I was angry.