The Alpha's Bet

Chapter 31

advance merry christmas and happy new year to all of u!!

***
Astrid

*Thud*

Sienna's lifeless body fell on the ground, and I heard a bloodcurdling scream.

I realized it came from me. I screamed in pain and horror as I stared at my best friend's lifeless body.

And then my surroundings seemed to melt and morph into an all too familiar face; Alpha Anito.

His words before he died was like a hex, it haunted me wherever I go. It was like a reminder of my sins, of the blood that I shed. It was as if I was cursed to always fucking remember every motherf*cking thing.

"I didn't kill your family."

Then I saw myself driving the sword through Alpha Anito's chest, my smile was so cynical and evil I couldn't believe it was me.

"It's too late for that, Anito." My voice sounded so cold it could freeze the scorching flames of hell.

I was frightened with what I witnessed.

"You shouldn't have killed me."

Anito slowly stood up, I was sure I killed  him! Why won't he leave me alone?!

"You shouldn't, murderer."

Murderer... murderer!!

I screamed at the top of my lungs, the first thing that I saw was Aiden's worried face hovering on top of me.

"You were screaming and trashing around, I was worried." He softly said and he squeezed my hand gently.

"I had a nightmare, even in my dreams 'he' continued to haunt me, I was so scared." I whispered shakily. I probably looked so vulnerable right now.

"Are-are you willing to see a therapist to stop the nightmares? Don't be too hard on yourself, hindi mo kasalanan ang lahat ng nangyari." His eyes looked so worrisome, his eyes were tired, and I felt such a selfish bitch.

Hindi lang ako ang nakaranas ng lahat ng iyon, he experienced it as well, why the fuck am I such a cry baby?

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be, we're together now, and you're not alone anymore, 'wag mong sarilihin ang lahat. I'm with you now."
He said with so much love I nearly wept. I am so lucky to have this man.

He kissed my forehead. I kissed his lips.

"Let's go together."

We're going to see a therapist together.

"But we have to find Coco first."

"Yes, we will."

"I love you."

"I love you too."

I can only hope na walang nangyaring masama kay Coco, I will never forgive myself. Baka mabaliw na talaga ako. My sanity will snap like a brittle glass.

I miss him, oh god I miss him so bad. And I love that boy, so much.

We heartily ate our breakfast after that, other than the nightmare, our day's just fine.