Adopted by O2L

I'm okay, I promise.

*before I start this chapter, it might be triggering for some Of you guys. I am always here if you need someone to talk too. You're not alone. Message me on here and I will answer you. I love you all and stay strong*

Carter's p.o.v

It has been over 2 months, and the whole situation with the nudes is still going on, and it's gotten out of hand. These past two months, I have been nothing but depressed, and I have lost a lot of weight.

My first leg of the tour ended, and I'm on my way home. I just need my dad. I think that in 3 months, the second leg of the tour starts.

Everywhere I go, someone has to bring up the false nudes. I don't think anyone understands how much it kills me inside. I am not mentally stable. I really am not. Bradley has been there more than anyone else, and his support means a lot to me.

"Carter, we need to have a chat with you." Justin said as he and Scooter sat down on the tour bus couch. I sat down. "Lately, you haven't been the same. You aren't happy like you used to be. You let the nude situation get to your head, and you're suffering. You've lost weight like crazy, and I'm worried about you." Scooter said.

"Scooter I'm fine, I promise." I said giving him a fake smile. "Carter, you're not." Justin said. "If I get worse I'll let you know, please. I'm fine." I said. "Fine." Scooter said. "We are here." The driver said. "Thank you." I told him.

I grabbed all my bags and took them out. "I'll see you guys later. Stay safe love you!" I said hugging Scooter and Justin. "bye!" They said as I walked in the house. I was attacked by so many people.

"Oh my god! I have missed you so much!" I heard Kian say. "I missed you too!" I said hugging them all. They all let me go and I hugged my dad. "Daddy!" I said. He kissed me and hugged me tight. "take a picture with me!" I said pulling my phone out.

I took a picture with Kian, Ricky, Trevor, && Dad. i then posted it.

'@CarterCaylen: I am back home and I have missed these idiots so much!💕😚 I am so happy to be back.☺️ just missing my @thevampsbrad'

I locked my phone and went up to my room. I had so many Polaroids of tour and I hung them up on my room. I then unpacked my clothes. I don't fit in most of them because of how much weight I've lost.

"Carter! I am have a surprise for you in the living room!" I heard dad yell. I went downstairs, and I saw Bradley. I ran to him and he picked me up. I kissed him. "I've missed you so much." I said.

"I've missed you too." He said putting me down. He hugged me. We sat down, and we all watched movies. It's nice to be home.

I took a picture with Bradley and posted it.

'@CarterCaylen: he surprised me and we are all watching movies on the couch. Love being home. 💘 @thevampsbrad'

After a while, we all just went to our rooms, Bradley is staying with me. He fell asleep. I went on Twitter and saw many hurtful tweets.

They killed me. I just kept looking at them.

'Carter is such a whore.'

'She is so ugly and I hope she dies'

'Why did Jc adopt her? She's a bitch'

'Bradley is dating an ugly ass whore'

I cried, and got up. I grabbed an old pencil sharpener and headed to the bathroom. I locked myself in the bathroom. I was balling at this point.

I unscrewed the screws from the sharpener and took the blades. I pulled up the gym shorts I was wearing so my thigh was exposed and began to make little lines with the blade.

Over and over again. Cut after cut. I didn't care how much it hurt, it brought me peace. I cleaned the blood up and rolled my sleeves up. I brought the blade to my wrists.

After I was done, I wiped my tears away and headed to my room. Bradley was awake. "Are you okay?" He asked me as I went to my purse. I put the blade in my wallet so Brad couldn't see. "Just hold me." I said as I jumped into bed.

He didn't say anything. He just held me close to him. "I love you so much, Carter." He told me. "I love you too." I said kissing his cheek. He held me tight.

I can't let Brad know about what I had just done. It will always be my little secret.

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Hey loves. Like I said at the beginning of the chapter, that if you are dealing with issues, just message me. I am here for you. You are never alone.

You are worth so much more than you think. You're beautiful inside and out. 💖 just message me on here and I'll give you my Kik or something. Stay strong!💕

~Melanie Faith💖