Adopted by O2L

I failed you.

Carter's p.o.v

It has bed a couple of days. I am at home by myself because everyone else is gone. My arms and thighs have been pretty much filled up with cuts.

I am disappointed in myself, but it's what keeps me happy and it relieves my pain. I don't want anyone to find out. No one. No one will ever know.

I have gotten pretty good at hiding them. It's no problem hiding them for me. I really miss Bradley. I just want him to come home. I found an old picture of us an tweeted it.

'@CarterCaylen: miss @thevampsbrad so much.😪❤️'

I then locked my phone and watched tv. I heard a knock on the door and I opened it. Luke came in. "Hey!" I said hugging him. "I thought you needed someone to take care of you." He said laughing as we sat on the couch.

"Well, thanks?" I said/asked laughing. "Yeah, no problem. What are you up to?" He asked me. "I've been watching tv." I said laughing.

Did I forget to mention the fact that my movie is almost done? As in I am almost done filming? I am beyond excited for this.

No one even knows about my movie, and that makes it even more exciting. And by no one, I mean fans. Obviously my friends and family know. That's pretty much it though.

Luke and I watched tv for a while. my dad walked in. "Hey dad!" I said standing up and hugging him. "Hey, is Luke the only one here?" He asked me.

"Yeah, I don't know where anyone else has been. Luke randomly came over." I laughed.

"Oh, well I'm gonna go up to my room." Dad said before he headed upstairs. Something's wrong with dad. I can tell by his facial expressions. I can see it in his eyes.

I'll have to find out later. I say back down on the couch with Luke. I put my legs on his and layed down. He took a picture of me and posted it.

'@lukehemmings: hope you're comfortable.😝 @CarterCaylen'.

I laughed and smiled. "I love you, Luke. You know that?" I asked him. He smiled. "I love you more, bestfriend." He said.

Luke is my best friend. We have been through so much together. And it's nice to have someone who cares so much, other than my dad and Bradley, obviously.

I looked at Luke and smiled. "What?" He asked laughing. "Nothing. I just love you, a lot." I smiled.

"I love you too, Carter." He told me smiling. We watched movies for a while before we decided to sleep. "I'll be right back, I'm gonna go change." I said as I walked to my room with Luke and got some sweats and a sweater.

I headed to the bathroom and quickly changed, took all my makeup off, and but my hear up.

I went into my room where Luke had changed into his onsie. I laughed and layed down.

As I layed down, my sleeve went up a little bit, and you could see all the cuts up my arm. I tried to cover them up quickly, before Luke saw, but it was too late..

"Carter, what are those?" He asked concerned. He grabbed my arm and pulled my sleeve up, all the way.

"Nothing." I said trying to take my arm away from his grasp. He looked me in the eyes and grabbed my wrist again.

"Carter, I asked you a question. I want to know why, and I want to know now." He said not breaking eye contact.

I began to cry, and Luke wrapped his arms around me and he embraced me in a hug. "Luke, I'm sorry. I failed you." I said crying.

He rubbed my back. "Stop, Carter, look at me." He said. I looked up at him, and he wiped the tears from my eyes.

"Listen to me, you have never failed me. Don't think that, ever. Okay? Can you please tell me why, and how long you've been doing this to yourself and in any other spots?" He asked.

"Do you remember the false nudes of me? That's why. It's still following me. I've been doing this for a few weeks, and my thighs." I said.

He pulled me in for a hug. "I love you, Carter. Don't forget that. Please promise me you'll stop." He said.

"I'll try too, Luke. It's so hard." I said sighing. "Does anyone else know?" He asked me. i shook my head. "I need to tell Brad and my dad." I said.

"Do you want to tell your dad right now?" he asked me. "I'm scared." I said. "I'll be with you, okay?" He asked me. I nodded and stood up.

I knocked on dad's door. "It's opened." I heard dad say. I walked in with Luke behind me. Dad was editing a youtube video.

"Dad, can I, uh.. Talk to you?" I asked. "Yeah, whats up?" He asked paying full attention to me.

"So, um... For a few weeks," I paused and looked at the floor and began to cry once again.

"Carter, what's wrong?" Dad asked standing up. Luke took hold of my hand, and I looked up at dad.

I lifted my sleeves up, and showed him. "Carter." Dad said before pulling me in a hug. "Please don't be mad." I said crying.

"I'm not mad." Dad said hugging me. "I'm so sorry daddy." I said crying even harder. "It's not your fault. Why, though?" Dad asked.

"The nude situation. People are so cruel." I said. "I know baby, we'll get through this together, I promise." He said hugging me even tighter.