Appetite For Destruction

-032

I stood in the kitchen stirring my simmering pasta sauce and singing to myself as I drank my wine. I'd suddenly been starving for pasta and this morning Happy had promised to be home on time to eat with me. Lux laid off to the side watching me with her big brown eyes watching me and wagging her tail whenever I would look her way.

I was about to put the pasta on when the front door burst open and Happy bust in "get dressed, we're on lock down"

I groaned loudly "what the hell for?!" I turned the stove off feeling my mood suddenly somber before I turned to look at Happy in the door way.

"Tara got a death threat, and a business meeting had a shooting..." he paused looking at my bare lower half "where are your pants?"

"You don't get to ask me that in my own house" I shrugged and he snickered before his face got serious again.

"Go get dressed! I'll sort this out and pack food for Lux" he gestured to my pasta sauce and Lux at his feet.

"This is some bullshit" I growled but did as I was told none the less.

Happy had rushed me to get dressed and into the car before he tailed me to the clubhouse, I noted how full the car park was and the tired, grumpy part of me resurfaced at the thought of having to cater to people. Gemma wouldn't have people staying without being the best host, which usually trickled down to me.

I let Lux out and Happy grabbed my back from me leading me into the crowded clubhouse. I immediately made my way down to his old dorm to dump my belongings as I waved at people saying hello.

"How long are we trapped here?" I grumbled as he wrapped his arms around my waist from behind.

"Just until we figure out what's going on. Why don't you go find the boys? I'm sure they'd appreciate seeing Aunt Evie" he kissed my shoulder before releasing me and turning to leave the room.

I sunk onto the bed momentarily feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders. The tired feeling was back and I wondered what the hell was going on with me. My mind moved to Tara and why the hell anyone would send her a death threat?

A knock on the door broke my thoughts and I called out for them to enter. Tara stood at the door with Abel at her side and Thomas in her arms "Here she is!"

Abel ran at my full speed and I put my arms out to catch him "hi big boy, I missed you" I pressed my lips against his blonde hair before putting my arms out for Thomas.

"Can I talk to you?" Tara spoke softly as she perched on the bed next to me looking a little shaken, though that was a given.

I nodded "what's up?"

"Do you know anything about why the cartel would be a threat to the club?"

I felt my breath catch in my throat as I looked at her "what do you mean?" I tried to act dumb, after all I wasn't supposed to know anything.

She sighed "I should ask Gemma"

"Yeah, I've barely seen Happy to know anything more to tell you Tara. I'm sorry about the threat though" I reached out and squeezed her hand and she smiled at me though I noticed she seemed unsure "I love you Tara, you're an amazing woman but all these questions and pushing to know more about my dads circumstances before he died...these questions are not going to end well for any of us"

"Aren't you concerned your mother and stepfather had something to do with it?" She shot back.

"No. There's lots of club business I don't know about, what I do know is after my brother died, my father disappeared. I know that I was young and scared and I know he wasn't there. I loved my dad Tara but I honestly feel like it's better for me to not know, and if I feel like that, I can promise you Jackson will fall apart worse than me. No good will come of this." I was stern this time as I touched on a subject I very rarely spoke on. I felt my heart constrict at the thought of my father and the feeling I had as a little girl, I'd felt abandoned and alone with no one but my mom and Jax.

She nodded and said nothing else on the subject which I was thankful for. We sat in silence, both deep in our own thoughts for a long while after that.