Appetite For Destruction

-046

My phone buzzed the next morning at nine am, I felt like I hadn't slept at all. The air conditioning in our house had died during the night and I was ready to die with it. Even with the fan on I still felt like I was melting into the mattress.

"Hello?"

'We're on lock down' Happy's voice sounded through the line and I rolled my eyes 'did you need help getting to the clubhouse?'

"No...I can sort myself out" I swung my legs over the side of the bed "why didn't you send Phil?"

I heard him breath deep on the other end of the phone 'that's why we're on lockdown baby. I won't go into detail right now, but get to the clubhouse. I'll be there soon'

I felt confusion ripple through me at his words but agreed anyway and hung up. I had the coldest shower I could manage before throwing on one of Happy's shirts and whatever shorts still did up. Packing a small bag, not sure on how long I'd be away from home and grabbing some food for Lux we headed towards the lot.

The lot was busy and full of the family members cars as I climbed out and waved at familiar faces. I noticed Ally moving towards me "hey girl, let me grab your bag" she smiled taking my bag from my hand.

"Thanks Ally, hows everything going?"

"Gemma has me on housebitch duties, everyone seems comfortable enough though. Tara and the boys are here too"

I rolled my eyes "okay cool. What do you need me to do?" I watched Lux run off towards Bobby and Tig as we walked inside.

"Your mom said you're to do nothing but I'm cooking in the kitchen if you wanna help?"

I nodded following her into the kitchen, my mouth started drooling at the smell of the meat cooking "oh my god I'm starving"

"I know you don't like being fussed over but I brought this chair in for you..." her voice trailed off and I laughed.

"Thanks Ally. I appreciate it"

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The next afternoon I sat outside the clubhouse with Ally and Chucky as we got the news that Otto had been shot in jail. I felt sadness but at least he could finally be with Luann. Happy still hadn't told me what was going on and I knew it was because it wasn't settled yet. That's why everyone was couped up here.

Nero and Gemma arrived, both looking agitated and I waved at them "cute couple!" I whistled and watched as my mom flipped us off.

"How you doing mama?" Nero asked as he hugged me hello, I liked him more every time I spent time with him.

"Hot and tired, wondering where my damn man is" I laughed.

Before we could speak anymore the roar of Harley's could be heard as they pulled into the lot. I watched as Happy and Jax climbed off their bikes and headed towards us.

"Can I speak to you for a minute?" Jax asked and I nodded as Happy helped me up, I followed my brother across the lot and into the office "sit down"

I sat on the couch and frowned at him "what's up?"

He sighed as he lit a cigarette and pushed his hair back "shits really tense right now with the Irish and this whole getting out of guns. But what I wanted to tell you in person, was that last night Phil and V-Lin were murdered by the Irish..."

I felt my eyes widen as my heart dropped "no..."

He nodded and I noticed how old my brother looked lately. He'd aged incredibly the last few months under the stress of doing what he thought was right. "I'm so sorry Evie, I know you were close with him...I thought you might want this though"

He handed me one of the rings Phil wore "thanks Jax" I whispered.

"I'm going to sort this out, neither of them deserved this" he lent back in the office chair "we have a phone meeting in about an hour with the Irish...I'm going to sort this for us"

I nodded and stood to move towards him as he stood too, I wrapped my arms around my brother in a tight embrace "I love you big brother"

I felt him wipe his eyes off before he pulled back from me "I'm going to go check on Tara and the boys" I nodded as he stepped out of the office and Happy stepped in.

I looked up at the deep eyes of my husband, who's face looked just as tired as Jax's did. I held my arms open and he stepped into them, I let his scent fill my nostrils as I breathed him in. I felt hot tears prick at my eyes but swallowed it down, if there was one thing Gemma had taught me it was how to be strong for our men. "You okay?" I whispered into his chest.

I felt him sigh "I'm okay. Are you okay? Baby moving okay?"

"I'll be okay Hap, and baby is fine" I lent back and took his face in my hands "it's not your fault"

He nodded "I know...just a rough few days"

"Come on, I'll get you a drink" I led him back towards the clubhouse.

I sat on Happy's lap with Chibs and Jax at the bar for a while, I zoned out, enjoying being in Happy's presence after being away from him for twenty four hours, so when Jax started yelling for everyone to get out cause there was a bomb I felt shock ripple through me. Happy scooped me up and headed towards the door. Everything felt like it was happening in slow motion, I watched as Jax ran back to the dorms to get Abel who'd been sleeping and felt panic over take me.

We stood on the other side of the lot as the bomb went off, Happy shielding me from anything as I sat on the ground. I felt the heat from the flames lick at my exposed legs, but could see nothing as Happy had be buried into the front of him. Once the explosion had happened he moved out of the way and I looked on in horror as the clubhouse was up in flames.