Appetite For Destruction

-037

A few days later I sat in our living room staring at the tv, I couldn't tell you what was playing I hadn't even been paying attention. It was the third day in a row I hadn't bothered going into work. I just didn't have the energy or the care factor. My heart was officially broken and I don't think I was ready to go to the clubhouse knowing Opie wasn't there.

Happy had been trying his best to be supportive but I could see it was wearing thin, he needed support too and even I could admit I was being a little selfish. The front door opened and Lux bound over towards Happy as he slipped his boots off "how are you feeling?" He asked from the door way.

"I'm okay. How was your day?"

"Long. Have you eaten?" He came to sit next to me on the couch, leaning out to place his hand against the minuscule bump of my stomach.

"I'm not hungry" I shrugged.

He sighed impatiently "You haven't eaten again today have you?"

"I'm not hungry" I repeated.

"You're growing our child Evie, it's not about you" He exclaimed sternly "now you're gonna eat, you're gonna sleep and tomorrow you're gonna get up and go to work. You're not the only person with shit going on"

I turned to look at him, a fire starting in my belly as he told me what to do. I hadn't felt frisky in days and the smell of leather mixed in with his tone had me suddenly desperate. I quickly moved so I was straddling him and placed a frantic kiss on his lips that he wasted no time returning. I moved to place open mouth kisses down his neck listening as his breathing caught in his throat.

As I went to unbuckle his belt I noticed the blood on his lap "are you bleeding?" I paused and noticed how fresh it was.

His face screwed up in confusion "no, I think it's you" he pointed at the blood running down the inside of my thigh and I felt my eyes widen as he realised what that meant "shit, we gotta go"

He rushed me towards Saint Thomas and I could see underneath his hard face he was worried. I felt numb to it all as I ran my hand over my small tummy, I hadn't exactly been overly excited about the pregnancy but the thought of it being taken away from me had nervous I had to admit.

We arrived and I saw Tara standing at the doors waiting "did you call her?" I looked towards Happy and he nodded.

"Come on" he mumbled pulling me quickly towards her.

Tara smiled at me stiffly "are you still bleeding?"

I looked down at my legs and shrugged "it seems to have slowed but it was heavy at home"

"Let's get you inside and I'll have someone examine you. Stress can sometimes cause a bleed, try not to worry too much just yet okay?"

I nodded and Happy squeezed my hand reassuringly as we followed her in. She got me situated in a room and changed into a hospital gown as we waited I turned to Happy "I'm sorry"

He looked at me with confusion "for what?" His voice was deep and laced with the stress of life mixed in with the newly added stress of worrying about the baby.

"It's my fault. I haven't been taking very good care of myself and turns out I'm not a very good mother even before I'm a mother" a wave of emotions hit and I could feel hot tears pricking at my eyes.

"Don't be ridiculous, besides we don't know what's going on yet, my little dude could be fine" he smiled at me, a playful look appearing over his features as I scoffed.

"You're going to be sorely disappointed when my princess is born" I teased and he kissed my hand from next to the bed.

In the same moment a tall bald doctor walked through the door closely followed by Tara "Hi I'm doctor Clarke, I hear you've been having some bleeding?" I nodded and he continued "Okay so roughly sixteen weeks gestation, little bit late for an implant bleed so let's take a look at your cervix"

I waited patiently as he put gloves on before moving to stand at the end of the bed and instructing me to put my legs up, I watched the scowl on Happy's face as the doctor lifted up my gown and felt around my insides. Even I had to admit it felt a little awkward as my sister in law stood and watched.

"Okay, so the cervix is still hard and closed. Which is a very good sign, though I'd like to do an ultrasound to double check on the heart beat"

I sighed in a small amount of relief as I nodded and agreed. It wasn't long before they'd brought the machine in and set it up next to me, and though I was nervous and praying everything was okay, I was also excited as Happy had missed my dating scan at eight weeks.

They placed the gel on my stomach before moving the wand around over where the baby should be, relief flooded me as a very strong heartbeat could be heard through the room and I heard Happy let out a breath of relief too. The tiny baby kicked and wriggled on the monitor before us and it all looked healthy and well.

"He's fine, I'd give my best guess that due to the stress Dr Knowles described you having been under recently that your body was just a bit stressed" Dr Clarke said as he wiped the goop off of my stomach.

Happy spoke up from beside me "did you just say he?"

"Well, it's maybe a couple of weeks too early but from that scan, it was very clear what he had between his legs" the doctor chuckled and Happy beamed a loom of 'I told you so' from next to me.