Appetite For Destruction

-022

It'd been a week since Happy had gone to Stockton and I was still yet to stay at our house, I'd been staying in my old room at my parents house and justifying it by saying I was keeping mom company, though the reality was I was scared to be home alone.

Though the immediate threat of Andrew was gone, his shitty family would start sniffing around eventually and let's just say, the scumbag doesn't fall too far from the tree. Without the protection of knowing Happy was sleeping next to me, being at home alone just seemed a bit too much at the moment.

Sitting at my mothers dining table with a bowl of cereal and a coffee I hummed to myself as I flicked through some trashy gossip magazine enjoying the silence of the morning. The sound of my mom in the kitchen getting herself a coffee could be heard and I called out to her "morning mama"

She stepped into the room cupping her mug with both hands "morning baby, you're up nice and early this morning"

I glanced at the clock on the wall '7:10am', I mean it wasn't super early but I'd been sleeping in till at least nine this past week from being awake all night tossing and turning. I smiled at her as she sat at the head of the table "Feeling a bit more settled about it all I guess"

"It gets easier, first time is always hardest" she lit a cigarette as she spoke "I mean it is tough only four months in though..."

I nodded and continued eating. She waited a moment before she spoke again "you know, for someone who repeatedly told me you'd 'never ever end up stuck in this stupid town and stupid club like me' you sure ended up stuck back here"

I snorted a chuckle "wow you remember all that"

"How could I forget you told me over and over until you ran off"

I smiled warmly at her as I reached out and grabbed her hand "how could I not end up back with my family...I'm sorry I was so tough to deal with growing up. I just had to get away from here to realise this is who I am, the Teller blood is just drawn here I guess" I laughed as she got teary "oh Gemma, don't turn soft on me now"

"Oh blow me Evie" she pushed my hand away with a glare "what are your plans today?"

I stood up drinking the last of the milk in my bowl "going to a doctors appointment with Tara for the baby and then stopping past home to check the mail, I'll be staying here again tonight"

"Sure thing baby"

I kissed her on the head before heading to prepare myself for the day. I didn't bother with makeup or anything fancy a pair of leggings and a tank top before heading towards Jax and Tara's, I was greeted at the door by Lyla "Morning Evie" she smiled stepping back to let me in.

"You watching Abel today?" I asked as I walked into the living room where the baby was laying on a play mat on the floor "hello handsome boy" I cooed from over the top of him.

Lyla perched on the couch behind me "yeah, how you handling things?"

I shrugged "it's the new normal for a while, I get to see him next week thank god"

Tara appeared from the bedroom and smiled at me "hey Evie, you ready?"

I nodded, kissing Abel once more and saying goodbye to Lyla before standing and following her out the door looking forward to a day of normality after two weeks of chaos.

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The doctors appointment went well, and we were now pulling into the driveway of Happy and I's place. The house looked normal, though being home made the feeling of missing Happy feel a bit stronger. I almost considered just checking the mail and not going inside but sooner or later I'd have to come home, I couldn't live with Gemma for a year.

"You okay?" Tara asked as we climbed out of the car "you seem a bit spooked"

I pulled the keys out of my purse and slid the key into the lock "I'm okay, just feels a bit weird being home without him I guess"

She nodded sympathetically "yeah I know the feeling"

The door opened and I stepped in, a feeling of comfort come from the familiar scene. Everything was exactly how I'd left it a week before, though it had a musty smell from being shut up. I turned to Tara "take a seat, I just gotta grab a couple of things"

She nodded and moved towards the living room behind me as I headed towards the bedroom. Opening the door I felt my heart ache, the smell of Happy's cologne still lingered in the air and I picked up the bottle of it to take with me. Once I finished packing a small bag I made a promise to myself I'd be back home within the week, I'm sure after I see him next week I'd feel better.

As I was about to leave the room I spotted one of his hoodies folded neatly on top of the chest of drawers and I grabbed it quickly stuffing it into my bag. I felt almost weak at how much I longed for him, we had barely been together long in the grand scheme of it all but he was my home now.

Walking back out into the living room Tara was perched on the couch looking like she was fighting some internal battle "are you okay?" I asked chucking the bag on the floor and sitting next to her.

She turned to me and looked like she wanted to say something but then decided against it "I'm fine. I'm just tired. So you seem more relaxed though...what happened with your ex?"

"Problem went away" I shrugged and she squinted her eyes at me.

"You didn't..."

"I did what had to be done and that's all you need to know"

She nodded in acceptance of the answer "I guess we've all been there...shall we go get something to eat before we go home?"

"Yeah I'm starving"

I stood and followed her out grabbing my bag on my way past. Looking around once more before I closed the door, I couldn't wait until this house stopped feeling so empty.