Don't Let Me Be Gone

One Hundred & Sixty Eight

TRIGGER WARNINGS : mention of cutting

Virgil POV
I'm evil to the core

What I shouldn't do I will

They say I'm emotional

What I wanna save I'll kill

Is that who I truly am?

I truly don't have a chance

Tomorrow I'll keep a beat

And repeat yesterday's dance

The lyrics to the song blasted into my head at full volume. I awoke slowly, feeling extremely lightheaded.

I was laying in my bed, in complete darkness. I was slightly shaking, it felt like I was trying to come back from a panic attack.

A soft knock sounded at my door making everything worse. I stayed quiet. The knock came again.

"Hey kiddo." Called Patton from the other side. "We're starting a video soon...just thought I'd give you a heads up.

A video?

We haven't done one of those in such a long time. But why not? A sharp pain stabbed through my head when I thought about...whatever it was too much.

I didn't say anything or move until I heard footsteps retreating from my door. I sighed, sitting up.

A dull pain shot up from my wrists when I used my hands to balance myself. 

"Fuck..."  I whispered to myself noticing that blood had leaked onto the bed.  I stood up to grab the gauze in my bedside table. 

I'm feeling major deja vu right bows.

I hastily wrapped my arm hoping Thomas wouldn't call us soon. 

So back to our old ways again, I see

Freak

I took off my headphones angrily.  The voice in my head always had a way of getting to me. 

Wait. A voice in my head? Why does this seem familiar? There shouldn't be a voice in my head, besides...besides who?

Your not cut out to be a light side

Cut...hmm

Maybe you should do that again

You belong to the dark

"No I don't!"  I yelled at nothing before I could stop myself. I slammed a hand over my mouth, a strange fear filling me. I didn't mean to yell that.

That's when I felt Thomas summoning me.

It's a strange feeling. One I haven't felt in a while. Or was it just yesterday?

But before I could ponder it more, I was summoned into the real world.  I appeared at the stairs, noticing I was the last to arrive. 

"Welcome Virgil!"  Said Thomas.  "Today's the day!" 

"The day for what?  For us all to realize this video is pointless?"  I asked.  Again, I said it before I could even think it or stop myself.

"Now Hot Topic, let's not be a downer already."   Said Roman, obviously already angry with me. 

But wasn't he kissing me just a few hours ago?  Another sharp pain went through my head.  What the hell is going on?

"You called me hot again."  I said before I could stop myself.