Mine (Book-1)

~Chapter 39~

[Song for the chapter:
Jealous- Nick Jonas]

Tori's P.O.V

"Tori."

"Tooriii."

"Toooriii!" Someone shakes my shoulders, trying to wake me up.

I throw my arms around in the air trying to indicate to whoever trying to wake me to leave me the fuck alone.

"Limmi alome." I mumble, my voice muffled by the pillow.

"Wake the fuck up, Towe!" Nathan whisper yells.

"If you don't wake up right now," he pauses, "I'm gonna tell everyone you eat ketchup with your tea."

"I'm up-" I sit up straight on my bed, "I'm up, very much awake."

"You really don't want people to find that out." Nathan states, smirking.

"It's not time for school yet, why'd you wake me up?" I ask, checking the clock on my side table.

"I- just wanted to let you know before I skip out." He scratces the back of his neck.

"It's still very early, it's like 5 or something, you can leave later."

"Umm- there's no right way to say it. Francesca called." He sighs.

"She did? What did she say?" I ask, rubbing my eyes, trying to wake up completely.

"She- umm. She can't clearly remember what she was upto yesterday. She remembers kinda breaking up with me, and she's apparently really sorry. And she asked me to meet her at Rob's before school." Nathan informs me.

"You know I don't like seeing you the way I saw you yesterday. I mean, if you don't want this, you don't have to." I mumble, not sure of my words.

"That's the thing. I want this, no matter the pain. I like her a lot, I've messed up a lot in my past, I can't afford messing up anymore." He sighs again.

"I understand. If you want this, then go ahead. But I don't want to see you all sad and messed up again." I say.

"I- I want to be with her." Nathan looks me in my eyes.

"Say no more." I shoot him the fakest smile.

I can't lie, but I'm kinda disappointed that he's leaving. Last night with Nathan, something clicked. I can feel my whole body aching just telling me this thing I'm feeling is wrong. I have no idea if he felt what I did. This whole situation, just feels wrong. But for now I'd rather bottle this feeling up and just bury it 6 feet under the earth.

"I'm sorry for leaving so quick." Nathan sighs, getting off the bed with me following behind.

I find no reason to fix my hair or change out of my pizza pajamas, or putting on a bra.

But I brush my hair a little and put on a bra anyways, as Nathan waits downstairs for me.

"It's okay, don't worry." I walk him out the door.

He shoves his hands in his front pockets, looking down at me. Did I mention how much taller he is than me?

I stand on my tippy toes and quickly give him a peck on his cheek and whisper in his ear, "Let me know how it goes."

With that I come down to my normal height and Nathan just gives me a nod and walks away.

I hold the door open, looking at the spot Nathan stood a few seconds ago.