Morwittz High

Death#50: The Talk

Hayden's POV:

"It's been years, Hayden." She smiles at me like nothing happened 10 years ago.

I smiled, "Yes, it's been years. And you didn't even changed at all, you never felt guilty from what you did to the plane." umayos ako ng upo. "Buti nakakatulog ka po nang maayos."

Biglang sumeryoso ang mukha niya, "If you're talking about the incident before, nakaraan na 'yon. And you were just seven years old that time, dapat hindi mo na pinapakailaman pa 'yon." she said with her thick english accent, it's because her husband is english and she stayed in London for years.

"Can't you hear yourself, Tita? 'Wag kong pakialaman?" I blew out a loud breath, "You're the one who's responsible and me and my parents are the victims here, and you're telling me to leave it? Kung pinatawad ka na nina Mamá then I am not! Hindi lang basta basta hijack 'yon Tita, we almost died. Sana naman kahit kaunti lang, Tita. Kahit kaunti lang sana may maramdaman kang guilt dahil a nangyari."

Pinilit kong itago ang mga luha ko kahit alam kong hindi ko kaya, "Alam kong bata pa ako no'n, pero bata pa din ako nung namulat na ako sa reyalidad. So if you want to say something else, if you want to apologize something. Wala pa akong lakas na makipag-usap sayo."

Tumayo ako at dali-daling lumabas ng bahay.

Hindi ko na napansin na mabilis ring sumunod saakin si Nowen.

Umupo ako sa damuhan sa tabi ng side walk at tiningnan ang papalubog na araw. Ngayon ko lang ulit nakita ang sunset.

Napapikit ako nang umihip ang malakas na hangin at nagsihampasan ang mga buhok ko.

Huminga ako nang malalim.

"Nothing will change if you'll keep your madness inside you, just let go. Salvia. Just let go."

Napayuko ako nang maramdaman kong tumulo ang mga luha ko.

Suminghot ako bago tumingin sakanya, "Akala mo ba madali lang? Sabagay pare-parehas lang naman kayo eh, mga walang konsensya. Wala ka noong nangyari 'yon kaya wala kang karapatan na diktahan ako kung anong dapat kong gawin." Muli akong tumingin sa harap.

"I always loathed you, since the very first time our path crossed. Wala ka nang nagawang tama tuwing kasama mo ako, you only care about yourself and your position in this school. We can't even have a good conversation, you're self-centered man who always keeps everything to himself."

I could feel how long he's staring at me, nakakunot ang noo kong tiningnan siya at nang makita ko ang itsyura niya, my expression changed.

His mouth was a bit parted, his eyes... It seems like he's hurt.

"You..." He blinked, "You talk like you never did something that actually sent you into trouble."

He looked away, "You do realize that everything that I did, I did those to keep you safe. You're my responsibility and it's my job to keep you from any harms and that includes you going with people that I don't completely trust."

"But from what you just said..." He closed his mouth for a second, "You made me realize that I should probably just maintain my relationship with you as a special student that I'm in charge to look after."