✿Bleeding Petals✿ [BakuDeku]

More Monotone Than Todoroki

"Bakugou?"

"Shh let him wake up on his own."

"Oh sorry."

I groaned and opened my eyes. Kaminari, Sero, Ashido, and Jirou were huddled around me, staring directly into my soul.

"Morning sleep head" Kaminari grinned.

"Shut up" Jirou whispered.

I sat up a bit. "Hey guys"

"Hey! Are you ready to go?" Sero asked.

"What?"

"Its Friday dude! After your surgery, you were supposed to wake up and get discharged yesterday but you slept the whole day," he said. He held up a little paper bag. "The doctor gave me your meds. She's kinda hot, don't ya think?"

"I'm gay"

"Oh right sorry." He handed me the bag. "I'm assuming she already explained when to take them." I nodded. "Alright! Here, your clothes are on this chair. Get changed and we'll take you home"

I got up and grabbed the clothes, putting them on in the bathroom. I then signed a few things at the front desk and got into Kaminari's car. He drove me home and I waved goodbye to my friends before stepping inside my apartment.

I immediately charged my phone and fed my cat. While I was feeding her, my phone rang. I picked it up.

"Hey, Kacchan! I'm so sorry I could see you today. I've been busy with work. How are you feeling?"

Deku. "Uh I'm good" I replied.

I could almost feel his smile through the phone. "Well, that's good. Why don't you come to the bakery tomorrow morning? I want to try and forget about this whole thing so how about we start over? Pretend nothing happened. We'll go back to being normal friends. Ok? I'll make you blueberry muffins and black coffee and we can sit down and have a nice conversation. I can smile and wave at you without making you cough up flower petals and you can come to my wedding without dying. Doesn't that sound nice?"

I hesitated. I finally realized how awful this was. "Ok" I agreed.

"Alright! I'll see you tomorrow. Bye." He hung up.

I set my phone down and decided to take one of my pills. I had it with a beer and some leftover pizza. I ended up eating the rest of the box because of how hungry I was.

The next morning, I headed to Deku's bakeshop. I sat on my stool and ate the blueberry muffins. We talked and laughed, just like he wanted. Not once did the topic of my disease come up.

Sunday was the same. And Monday. Tuesday. On Wednesday, I finally went back to work. My boss, Toshinori, didn't even notice that I was gone which was fucking amazing. Apparently, Ojirou knew about everything that had happened. Kaminari had told him. He apologized and made sure I knew that I could go to him whenever I needed it.

Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday. Each day was the same. Each day things slowly went back to normal. I had stopped smoking and had cut down to only 1 beer a day. I was going to the bakery every morning and then heading off to work, going home and taking care of my cat, taking my meds, and finally going to bed. Even my sleeping had gotten better. I wasn't tired during the day anymore and my nightmares weren't as bad. I may have gotten used to them. At least I think.

Lately, there's one thing that hasn't been going back to normal. It might be depression. I don't know for sure. I know that when I left the hospital, I felt good. No more roses coming out of my throat. I even showed that the next morning when Deku and I spent the day laughing and talking like we were best friends. But each day, I've been getting less and less happy. But the thing was, I haven't been getting sadder either. I just feel kind of numb. Most of the time, my mind is completely blank. It may be a side effect of the meds. But I thought the medication was only supposed to erase my romantic emotions for Deku, not all my emotions.

On Monday, I went to the bakery again. Deku greeted me exactly like usual. Kind of. He was acting a bit strange. He set down my muffins and I slid them toward me.

"Hey, Kacchan? Can I ask you something?" He asked.

"Hmm?"

"So that Hanahaki's disease." He paused. This was the first time we talked about the disease since my surgery. "Uh, how do you know if you have it? Like before you start coughing up petals?"

I grew very suspicious. "Why?" I asked in a monotone voice.

"I don't know. My friend might have it" he said quickly.

I sighed and set down my muffin. "Mostly you just feel it. Emotion or whatever. If you know you like someone and they don't like you back. By the way, not everyone gets the disease. There's a chance they won't get it."

"Oh," he whispered.

"Who's this friend?"

He looked up at me. At first, his face was sad but when we met eyes, it changed. He looked scared. "Kacchan? What are these meds supposed to be doing?" he asked nervously.

"Just helping me to stop liking you."

"Are you sure? Are there side effects or something? Because you look different. Your face looks expressionless. So do your eyes. You haven't laughed in a while. The last time you smiled, it looked forced. As if you were in pain. Bakugou, I feel like these new pills aren't just taking away your love for me."

"They're fine Deku," I said. He was starting to scare me. He had noticed it too. That I wasn't being myself.

"You legit just said that in a voice more monotone than Todoroki's. Maybe you should stop ta-"

"They're fine Deku!" I repeated louder.

He flinched and looked down. "Sorry" he responded in a small voice.

After that, I finished my muffins in silence and left. Mostly of out fear. Mostly because I didn't feel bad when I snapped like that. Normally, I did. But something was definitely up. However, I had to keep taking these pills. If I didn't, all of this stuff could be reversed and I could possibly die.

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