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H W A N G  H Y U N J I N

i skipped class. not really, it's gym class and i don't think it's important anyway so i don't consider this as skipping class. i sit at the floor in the middle of the dance studio with the lights off as i stare at myself at the huge ass mirror.

i want to talk to myself and think of all the decisions i made and the ones i'm about to do, but i don't really know how. i'm not really good at meditating. i've been sitting here for a while and i still haven't done anything better than sighing or pulling on my hair.

i prefer talking to someone and releasing it all. it's fine if i don't get an answer, just the fact that someone listened is ok for me. but i don't know who to talk to right now. i'm classmates with seungmin and felix and i know i can talk to them but i just can't bring myself to do so.

i hope minho hyung is here. or chan-ie hyung. or woojin hyung. or even changbin hyung. i chuckle to myself. or... or yeji.

" ah shit " i hissed and pulled at my hair, closing my eyes tightly. what the hell is going on with this life?

yesterday was good. too good i may say. is that why today isn't? i put my hands down and stared at my reflection again instead. only to see a girl standing beside me.

i felt my whole existence shake in an instant. even though i was sitting i'm pretty sure i jumped and even squealed. i turned to look at her standing beside me. she's laughing as she looks down at me.

" chaeyeon, you made my heart go crazy " i said, still shocked by what happened. she stopped laughing and gave me a smile. " i did? " she asked and pressed her lips together to prevent the smile from showing.

i processed her question and the words that i said. i blinked twice and when realization hits me i felt my cheeks heating up. it sounded like i made a confession. i mean, not like it's a lie but-

" no i- i mean you s-scared me " i stuttered. the smile on her lips disappear and was replaced by a pout. and that's when i realize what i just said. shit! it looks like i just rejected her! what the heck hyunjin!

" no no- i also mean that y-yes you make my heart beat because i like you and i- i'm mumbling shit now- ah shit- i just ca- "

she laugh then shake her head. she sit beside me and rest her head on my shoulder. " i like you too " she murmured. i bite my lower lip as a smile creep its way to my lips. she turned her gaze to me, our faces so close to each other. " so much " then we both smiled at each other.

this is very calming. i wish it can be like this forever. i sighed and made sure she won't hear it. i don't want her to worry. i look down on my lap and started fidgeting with my fingers. i feel so embarrassed right now.

when the article was published earlier this morning, i quickly searched for her. i was worried. yet, when i saw her she just smiled at me. i explained immediately and she didn't even let me finish and said that i don't have to explain because she believes me. she trust me.

ahh, why? what did i do in my past life to deserve such a girl like her. she's been by my side since then, and until now she's still here. that's why i can't leave her. she's just so perfect and i can't think of anyone else for me than her. i can't think of anyone else to be in this position with other than her. only her, lee chaeyeon.