innocent | HHJ + SRJ

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S H I N  R Y U J I N

i look around me and everyone seems to be agitated with what's going to happen. we have gathered the boys, jeongin, felix and seungmin, while jisung was told to bring hyunjin here on the rooftop as soon as possible. before we gave that task to jisung, yeji and jisu already told the four of them about heir plan. well except the part where i steal hyunjin.

surprisingly, felix and jisung actually like the idea. they said that we can do it for a few months until the issue die and then break up so we can go back to our real lives again. jeongin on the other hand thinks that it is quite helpful for me but he also thinks that hyunjin wouldn't like it since the seven of us already know about him and chaeyeon. in seungmin's case he said that the plan is a mess. he said it's unorganized and that we cannot be sure with how the school community will respond to it.

i know that two among the four of them fully agreed to it but i still doubt this. i don't really wanna do it but yeji and jisu are forcing me to do it. they say i can benefit a lot with this. i don't even know if i do really want that benefit.

i frustratingly let out a sigh and rested my head on jeongin's shoulder. i scoot closer to him and cling on his arm, while i still rest my head on his shoulder. i just want to lay down for the whole day and not socialize with anyone. i closed my eyes and instead of seeing darkness, all i see were the faces the other students were giving me when we were on our way here.

they were all giving me those bad stares like they weren't trying to be close with me before. everyone wanted to be my friend but now, i'm probably on everyone's blocklist. i'm not ready for this and i can't be used to this, i don't want to.

my mentality is strong, i know that. no one can beat me, i'm at the top. but... but today is different. it was all a surprise and i'm not prepared. i don't know. i feel weak.

i feel like i won't be able to breathe under their stares. then they'll talk about me on my back too. i know my friends and i know they won't let me face all of this alone but, we don't know what can happen. what if they end up believing those rumors saying that i'm a slut. that i'm useless. arrogant. fake. what if- what if they leave me.

" hey "

i opened my eyes and felt jeongin holding onto my hand. i didn't realize that i was already squeezing his arm. i let go of his arm and let out a sigh again. he grab my hand and clasp it with his. i look at our hands as i lightly tighten my grip onto him.

" stop overthinking ryujin " jeongin whispered. i want to, but i don't know how.

" actions speaks louder than words and definitely louder than thoughts too. so let us go with this plan and see how it will work, ok? " he said and pushed me lightly. i hummed in agreement, even though i'm already doubting everything even before it starts.

" we'll be by your side throughout this, don't worry "

jeongin and i's little counselling moment was cut off when the rusty door of the rooftop opened. i raised my head to see jisung and hyunjin walking towards us. jisung went straight to sit beside yeji while hyunjin just stand there in front of us.

by the looks of him, i bet he already saw the article. i can see clearly the annoyance in his eyes. definitely different from how it looked like yesterday with all the sincerity. his annoyance disappeared when his eyes met mine. i bet it's because of my state. weakness shamelessly shown on every side of my face.