innocent | HHJ + SRJ

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S H I N  R Y U J I N

throughout the time we spent riding the bus, hyunjin has been glancing and checking on me every now and then. we are seated on the very back of the bus and only few people are riding the bus at the moment. i focussed my eyes on the bouquet on my lap, my fingers playing with the lace ribbon wrapped around it.

i am not looking at hyunjin but every time I try to look at him, i'll catch him looking at me. now what am i suppose to feel? i'm literally a red tomato right now, thank goodness i just cried awhile ago so i have a different reason as to why i look like this. and hyunjin? geez, he looks so normal. no flustered look and shy glances, just hwang hyunjin.

i definitely want to ask him why he keeps on staring at me but before i could muster the courage to say a word, we already arrived at our destination. hyunjin and i started walking side by side as we make our way towards the hospital. he's standing too close to me again, i can't help but want to hold his hand. oh, if only i can.

i huff, my lower lip pursed a little. my eyes are focussed in front of me while walking. ugh, i really want to hold his hand. i mean, this is like the best timing to do such thing. i transfer the bouquet from my right hand to my left hand. alright let's do this ryujin.

i glance at hyunjin, on my right. he's not looking at me. now that's a first. i looked away and contemplated hundreds of times in my head if i should do it or not. after a few considerations, i finally decided to do it. we never know, he might not mind it.

i grab his hand... but at the damn same time he dig both his hands in his jeans pocket. instead of holding his hand, i ended up grabbing him on his left forearm. my whole body froze because of what i just did. what the heck! of all things to happen this one happened the same time i was planning to hold his freaking hand.

hyunjin stopped walking, glancing at me then to my hand and then back to me again. the way his eyebrows are furrowed and how his eyes looks confused and concerned made my face heat up until i am as red as a tomato.

" ryujin? " when my name left his lips my brain started working again. i have to think of a reason as to why i did this embarrassing stunt.

" uh... i- i wa- " i stuttered, still thinking of a reasonable explanation.

" are you alright? is something wrong? " he asked me, confusion and concern still evident on his face.

" uhm " i look away from his and saw the bouquet on my other hand. " here! "

i pulled his hand from his pocket and put the bouquet in it. i look up at him and saw how more confused he turned to.

" h-hold that for me " i stated and started walking again. i made sure to walk faster this time so i can at least hide my embarrassed face from him. i'll never do such thing ever again.

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hyunjin and i are seated at a couch here at the hospital's lobby. like in the bus, hyunjin stared at me as if i'm some movie he found interesting. i'm so freaking conscious right now. i feel like i look like the most horrible being ever. can he please stop looking at me, tsk.

i shifted on my position and stared at my phone. we're actually here since jungseo's mother is still with her in her room. earlier, i messaged her and asked her if i can go there but she stopped me. she told me to wait until her mother leave.

i understand her. her mother kind of got mad at me. because you know, she kind of blame me because of what happened to her daughter, all of it. so now, hyunjin and i are waiting for jungseo to message me that her mother already left. but there's no message yet.