innocent | HHJ + SRJ

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S H I N R Y U J I N

i look outside the window as i ride the bus home. well i'm supposed to be alone but yeji insisted to go with me. then she forced felix to come with us so here we are. i told them they don't have to go with me since their houses are on the other side of town. going with me meant that they'll be far from their own home.

i sighed and closed my eyes as i rest my forehead on the seat in front of me. the three of us sat at the very back of the bus, me on the seat nearest the window. i feel dumb right now. why the hell am i being so depressed about something like that?

when i saw them earlier, yeji and felix doesn't seem to see it at first but they realize it when they saw me looking at the two. yeji gasped and quickly turn to me. she forced me to go but my feet were glued on the floor. i didn't want to see it, i want to look away and run. but i didn't, i even watched them, an idiot indeed.

i'm pretty sure felix already knows now, if not well he's such in a different level of idiot-ism now. but i think he does. i'm too obvious that moment. also since yeji didn't have to force him that hard to come with us. he actually said yes after yeji asked him for the first time.

i already see this coming anyway. my other friends will really get to know it. i told yeji, jisu heard us talking, jeongin already has his theories, and now felix knows too. they'll know it, someday, that's why i have to be mentally prepared all the time to at least make them know about it later than i expect.

" yah, we're here "

i look up and saw felix already standing with my bag and his bag. yeji smiled at me and pulled me up and out of the bus. she cling her arms on mine as we walk towards my house. they didn't talk or say anything, i'm glad they do. i don't feel like talking right now.

i just want to lay down on my bed forever.

seriously, do i like hyunjin that much? isn't it too early for me to like him like this? like i only started liking him a few weeks ago. what's wrong with me? is this because he's the first person that i liked who doesn't like me back? argh, just thinking about the fact that i like him this much and he doesn't like me back feels awful as hell.

the house is empty, like usual. dad's probably at work. mom, maybe she's at her friend's house. when we entered my room, i immediately collapse on my bed. i pulled one of my pillows close to me and hugged it, letting out a groan because of the comfort it gives me.

i felt both sides of my bed dipping, the two lay down beside me. it was silent and i like it. a comforting silence. i stared at my cream colored ceiling, the only sound i'm hearing are our breathing and the deafening beating of my heart.

" so you like hyunjin " i turn to my left and look at felix who's staring at the ceiling. the back of his head, comfortably resting on both of his hands. " jeongin was right, he knows you well " he added.

" what? " yeji sit and look at felix with knitted eyebrows.

" jeongin once told me, seungmin and jisung that he thinks ryujin likes hyunjin. but jisung and i didn't believe him since we think that's impossible, but we're wrong " felix sit down too, as well as i, and shrug his shoulders with a small smile on his lips.

" and seungmin? " yeji asked again, her eyes filled with curiosity.

" oh, he agreed with jeongin. he said he can see it too " felix answered while scratching the side of his neck.