A Love Hate Feeling | l.h.

Chapter Twenty-Five

Chapter Twenty-Five

Vanessa's Point of View:

Two weeks. It had been two weeks since Luke and I broke up. Two weeks since we last talked.

He left for the tour in one week.

I tried to get him to talk to me, but he refused. Every time I would try to call him, he'd ignore it. Whenever I'd text him, he wouldn't text back.

After the first four days of us not talking, I thought that I had given him enough time. Those four days felt like four months to me. After four days, I called him, and left a message saying how much I loved him and I hoped he would come around soon. I texted him too, but he didn't reply.

Day one, I was depressed. I didn't get out of bed much that day. My friends came over telling me that I had to get my shit together, but I couldn't. Luke was the only thing on my mind, I couldn't think of anything else but him.

Day two, I got out of bed and went to lunch with my mom and Joey. I had fun, for the most part. When we pulled into our driveway, I saw Luke and Liz getting into their car. Luke and I made awkward eye contact, but nothing was said.

Day three, I debated whether or not to call Luke. I was over at Bethany's house that day, and she told me I should, but I couldn't. I didn't think he would answer, so I just thought it wouldn't be a good idea.

Day four, was when I called him. I went over in my head a thousand times what I was gonna say, if he answered the phone. When I did call him, the line went to voicemail after two rings. I knew that he ignored the call. Feeling more broken than I already was, I left him a message. All I said was that I missed him, and loved him. And I hoped he would forgive me soon, or at least give me the chance to explain.

I also hadn't been talking to Kendra, because of what she did. None of this bullshit would be happening, if Kendra would've just kept her mouth shut.

Day five, I went to a water park right outside of Sydney, with Addison and her family. It really helped take my mind off of everything, but I still thought about Luke for the majority of that day. When I got home that night, Luke was sitting on his front porch, playing guitar, and singing the song Isn't She Lovely, by Stevie Wonder. He looked up from his guitar and saw me, not saying anything. Just looking at me. I couldn't even tell what kind of look he was giving me. When I got inside my house, I cried, because hearing Luke sing made me realize how much I missed him.

Day six, I spent the whole day playing xbox with Joey, and watching stupid movies on Netflix. It was pretty fun, I was able to hangout with my brother for a day. I never really did spend any time with him, so chilling with him was pretty good. He helped me get my mind off of Luke for more than an hour, and I was grateful for that.

Day seven, I was having bad stomach pains, so I didn't get out of bed much. I was in a really shitty mood that day, all I did was sob into my pillow. I got bored, and started to watch Luke's covers that he had on YouTube. I cried, because I missed him so much. I even ended up texting him again, which he didn't reply to. I wasn't surprised, though.

Day eight, Kendra came over and apologized. She even started crying, and that really showed how sorry she was, because Kendra never cries. I hugged her tight and told her it was okay. We were venting to each other about how much we missed relationships, because she was single now too. Michael broke up with her, because he wanted to take a break, since they wouldn't be seeing each other for six months.

Day nine, my grandma came to visit. I hadn't seen her in a few months, so it was great to catch up with her for a day. I told her about Luke, and she told me to stop wasting my tears on him. She said that I can and will find someone so much better, someone who won't hurt me. That's the thing though, I didn't want anyone else. All I wanted was Luke.