A Love Hate Feeling | l.h.

Chapter Thirty-Two

A/N: just a heads up: when Luke is talking to Vanessa in the hospital room, the italicized words are what Vanessa would've said, if she was awake.

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Chapter Thirty-Two

Vanessa's Point of View:

Darkness.

There's so much darkness.

I can hear everything that's going on around me, but I can't see anything.

It's all dark.

I didn't even know what time it was; hell, I didn't even know what day it was.

I keep trying to force my eyes open, but I can't.

Even though I can't see, I heard literally everything. I knew I was in the hospital, and in a coma. I heard monitors beeping around me, plus the feel of the room wasn't a homely feeling.

So, I'd be lying if I said I didn't burst out in tears when I heard all the stuff Luke said.

He cried and kissed me a lot, even though I couldn't kiss back. He sang to me and held my hand; two things that always calmed me down. He told me he loves me.. I never thought I'd hear those words again, not in person at least.

Even though my eyes were shut, I was crying internally. I craved the feeling of Luke's lips on mine. I craved getting lost in his ocean blue eyes. Everything about him, I craved.

I needed to wake up soon, because I needed to see him before he left again.

Feeling my hospital bed shift a little, I smiled on the inside.

"Hi," Luke whispered. I could tell he was about to cry.

"The doctors said they did some tests on you,"

They did.

"They told me that you can hear me, and everything else going on around you."

I can.

"So you heard everything I said yesterday, you even heard the song."

Yeah, I did. I loved it.

"I really hope you wake up soon."

Me too.

"It's only been a day and a half since I've been back, and I leave in six days." He sighed, putting his hand on top of mine.

I hope I wake up before then.

"I love you." Luke whispered. I felt his tears falling onto my hand, which made me want to burst out in tears.

I love you too Luke, so much.

"I love everything about you. The tiny dimples you get when you smile widely, and the crease you get in your forehead when you're deep in concentration. The way you roll your eyes when I say something stupid, and when I tell a lame joke, yet you still laugh. You're perfect Nessa. You're so god damn beautiful, and I'll never understand why you think differently. I could stare into your beautiful brown eyes all day and just listen to you talk."

I felt myself smile so big. Not on the outside, but on the inside.

"Wow," Luke laughed. "I really just said all that, huh? Well what I'm trying to say is, I love you. But you already know that, and wow I'm just rambling now."

I was so happy, I couldn't even think straight. I knew Luke loved me, but I've never heard him spit all of that out in one sentence. Wishing I could reply, I knew I couldn't.