I hugged Jase to me. I hurt him so much and I feel how desperate he is. What have I done? I'm hating myself. He's whispering please over and over in my ear.
"Okay. Jase I will be whatever you need me to be." I tell him. I don't know what else to say to the man I broke. He's been so strong and patient. Im rubbing his back and he calms down.
"I need you back. " he says looking at me so alone and scared. I nod to him. Im not sure how to deliver. A thought nags me.
"Okay. .. I will figure it out. I will make myself remember." I decide that I'm going to have to get hold of Blake.
"How?" Jase asks.
"I need a little more time. Bring me home." I tell him slowly letting go. I grab his hand and we ride back up in the elevator. We slowly walk to his truck.
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As soon as we get there I walk in and see all of them hanging out. Brody looks over at us. As soon as I see Blake look over to me, I call him over. Brody's face drops. I don't have time though.
Blake follows me upstairs and watches me throw a bag to the ground. I grab an extra outfit and some necessities. I look at him and he's confused.
"Im going to visit my mom's grave and then my father. I'm not sure about going alone."
"Didn't your father disown you?" Blake asks.
"That's what I'm told. Ive been scared this whole time. I think if I face him that I will remember something or everything. I feel like they might be the key. Would you come with me?" I ask.
"Yeah. ..." Blake says unsure.
"Thank you. Im just scared of what will happen and I need someone that cares with me." I tell him and he nods.
I put my packed bag in my closet. I take out my laptop and book two flights to Buffalo and back first thing in the morning. I book us a double at holiday inn.
"Don't tell them. I don't want them to stop us. We leave at seven so I can stop by the cemetery." I dont think visiting my mom's grave will jog my memory since I've never been there. I go back down stairs with Blake following behind me. Jase and Brody look up at me. I go to say something and everyone is watching.
"Ummm maybe the three of us should talk. ... this is a mess and I'm hoping we can fix it." I say and walk downstairs. They follow me into the office and I shut the door.
"The new furniture looks nice Brody. " I tell him and smile.
"Yeah. . Im awesome. " Brody says starting to relax alittle.
"We haven't talked about what happened this morning. Im not saying I didn't like what happened but obviously it was far from planned or thought of. I need to know if it meant more to you." I tell him sitting at the desk while looking at him.
"I think it does. I never thought of you as more until this morning and now I can't stop thinking about you."
"That's messed up." Jase says looking away.
"Listen I don't want to get in the middle of you two and mess up your relationship. Your brothers first. Family is important. We have been waiting for me to remember and I'm not sure how but now things are messed up. Im not choosing. Right now in my heart I love you both equally. I can't imagine my life without you two. "
"You don't have to choose. " Brody says quietly and looks down. "I will always be your friend. "
I look over to Jase and he's got this torn look on his face. He let's out a breathe and looks over to me. He runs a hand thru his hair. "No you don't have to choose. Brody will always be my brother. Im not even sure what this means right now."
"Me neither. Are we supposed to choose for you or are we sharing you?" Brody asks. Now I'm rubbing my head. Oh god Brody.
"I'm not really sure of our next step. I need you guys to figure out what will make us all happy and not hurt each other. Something we can all live with. Im going to let you guys decide the best move so we don't lose our friendship. Im going to be gone for a couple days. Two at most. I decided that I might have a way that will jog my memory. So I need you two to be big boys and figure this out. Even if I get my memory back things have changed. Stuff wont go back to the way it was. Things have happened. On that note, I'm going to bed alone. Im locking my door. "
"I can still get in thru the balcony. " Brody says with a smirk.
"Where are you going? " Jase asks.
"I will text you my destination in the morning after I leave. Don't worry. I asked Blake to come with me so I won't be alone."I tell him. He's thinking about it and nods.
"Is it out of state?" Brody asks.
"Yes and thats all your getting. " I say and go upstairs. I get in bed and think about how hard tomorrow's going to be.
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I wake up early and alone. I get in the shower. I decide to dress warm. A big sweater and skinny jeans. I throw on sneakers and my hair in a ponytail.
I go down stairs with my bag and throw it in the truck. I then go get Blake. I look in his room and he's still a sleep. I jump into his bed.
"Blake time to get up and fly." I say and stretch my arms out like I'm a plane. He starts opening his eyes.
"Its early. "
"I know Blake but its time to go. I will make us coffees while you get ready. " I tell him.
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On The Run
Randomthe sequel to my step brothers Chapters have been set to private by wattpad, you have to follow in order to read. Blake's decided he's had enough and the best way for him to survive is to leave home and take care of himself. Will he be strong enoug...
