Will Of A Deity

24| Déjà Vu

Time: 21:34
Location: Outside of Assembly Hall, Horizon Academy
Merina Lilienne Amelia Neris

I'm anxious...

I sat on the one of the benches outside the Assembly Hall. I can still hear the loud music from inside. A sigh escaped my lips as my mind wanders to my upcoming birthday.

The kingdom of Ayanis is known as the kingdom blessed by the goddess of the sea -Aman Sinaya. One reason why it was called blessed is because in each era of the royal family, one member will be chosen by the goddess to claim the Cordelia. It is a national treasure of the kingdom given by the goddess herself. It is said to bring prosperity in the kingdom. But for that to happen, one must claim it. When a symbol appears on a member of the royal family on their 18th birthday, they must claim the jewel.

And if the jewel is not claimed...who knows what will happen to us once we face the wrath of the goddess.

My older siblings, the first, second and third, has already passed 18 and no symbol appeared on them. As the fourth one, I feel anxious. The symbol, it will definitely appear on me. How will I claim the jewel if I can't even get out of this school?

Sigh...It would be better if the symbol don't appear on me. I can't risk the kingdom's welfare just because of my incompetence.

I am aware of the responsibility that comes with being the holder of Cordelia. And I am aware that I do not fit the criteria. I'm clumsy, forgetful and slow.

I'm not creative like Ate Serena.

I'm not intelligent like Kuya Semyon.

I'm not skillful like Kuya Roland.

"Is she the 4th princess?"

"That's...her?"

"She's very...different from her older siblings."

"She's young I'm sure she'll mature soon."

"At that age, Prince Semyon is already handling the public affairs."

"Will she be fine?"

"She cries a lot."

"Don't you think she has too much guards and maids around her."

"I heard she can't do anything on her own."

"That can't be right. I mean, she's a princess...right?"

"She's lame for a princess."

These thoughts again...I tried my best to shut them out. But they always come back to me. They do nothing but torment me.

"She's so weak. She's not smart either. She does have magical powers but that's it. It's not enough. What is she good for?"

I bit my lower lip as I remember the words of one of my tutors. I wish I didn't heard them. I bet if I didn't have magical powers, I would have been good-for-nothing.

All I have is a title that I didn't even deserve.

And there it goes again, these tears. Ahh I don't want to cry. I really don't want to cry. I'm just proving them right. I have to be strong.

Stop...stop...don't cry...don't cry...don't cry, Merlia. You're alright, you're fine. Have confidence, you're strong. You can do this. You can...you can...you...

I can't do it.

I can't do this. I'm too weak. I'm not cut out for this. I'm-----

"Princess?"