Will Of A Deity

32| A Field of Roses for the Lady

Year 2620

I sobbed as the snipping sound of the scissors echoed around the room. My trembling hands continue as locks of reddish brown hair fall to the floor.

I hate it...I hate it so much...

"Selene!" She immediately grabbed the pair of scissors from my hand. "What do you think you're doing?!" She yelled at me as she hold both of my wrist. My face was a mess from all of my tears and my eyes are starting to hurt.

"I don't like it! I hate it so much! Why do I look the same as that bastard?! Why do I have to look like this?!" I continued to cry. The strong emotions of grief and anger is clouding my vision as my chest starts to hurt. "Everytime I see myself in the mirror...he's all I see...why can't I erase him...I just...I just want it all gone..."

She embraced me tightly as I bury my face on her shoulder while crying. She pat my back to calm me down. "Shhh..." She whispered to calm my trembling body. After a while, I had finally calmed down. But I was still left in daze since I did cry too much.

She held my hand as we walk down the hallway of the mansion. I didn't even noticed that we went in her room. She made me sit on a tall stool infront of the mirror. I guess I was too preoccupied reflecting on my actions that I failed to notice her scrambling around her things.

"Ta-da!" I was dragged back to reality when she finally made a sound. My eyes went to the mirror infront of me.

My hair...it's black.

"It's a wig," she said as she fix a few strands that went astray. "I remembered I have it so I thought you would want it."

I didn't say a word and just stare at myself in the mirror. My eyes are two different colors. It made me look like a freak. The wig I'm wearing had hidden the revolting reddish-brown hair that I cut unevenly.

"Listen, Selene." She said as she put both of her hands on my shoulders. Her long blonde hair reaches the side of my face even though she's standing. She was a tall woman with glinting ruby eyes. "Even if you don't accept yourself right now, there is no reason to be frustrated and hurt yourself. Healing takes time so take your time, there's no need to rush. Keep this wig on for as long as you don't like yourself. And when you've finally accepted yourself and let go of the past, take it off. Then, you can see just how beautiful your auburn locks are."

I smiled ruefully. "Thank you...Ate Kaori."

"If there's a 'heavens no' and a 'hell yes', why isn't there a 'purgatory maybe'?"

"Ugh fuck..." Curses rolled more pleasantly on my tongue whenever this person is around.

"Ah!" Her face brightened when realization came over her. "Purghaps----"

"Natasha Michaelis, why the FUCK are you in my lab again?!" I shouted at her. I didn't even feel her coming in. Fuck her stealth!

"Ayaw mo ako dito?" She pouted. I just gave her a look that summarizes how done I am with her.

"Sungit!" She stuck her tongue out on me. This childish motherfucker!

"I have no time to deal with you right now. If you have two eyes and a brain cell, you'll realize how fucking busy I am right now." I said as I took a sample of the cave components we successfully recovered from the ruins. More than that, the lab is a mess. I didn't even went home last night and literally slept here. Now that that reminds me, I really need a bath.