I Wish I Could Say It Was a Mistake

Chapter 41: You take me to the edge then you hit the break

After tossing and turning for hours in bed, I decide there's no point trying to sleep so I go the living room.

When Emma gets home in the morning I wake up on the sofa. I guess I must've finally managed to fall asleep.

She tells me all about her night. It was completely the opposite as mine. They went to Liam's, had a lovely time and finally slept together.

I'm happy for her. She's got it clear that she doesn't want to see Liam again, for now. Liam agrees, so there's no drama there.

I wish I could be as strong as her. How does she manage to not catch feelings for Liam even though he's so cute? Ugh.

Days go by and I don't hear from Harry. I see he's posted an interview so I guess he's busy with work.

"You should call him.", says Emma, shutting my laptop in front of me after seeing that I was stalking his Instagram.

"It's not worth it.", I sigh.

"Look,", she continues, spinning me around and forcing me to stare into her eyes, "you two are meant to be together, but you can't let it all go to waste because of a stupid fight."

"It wasn't stupid."

"Yes, it was! Honey, do you or don't you want to be with him? "

I look away again and sigh.

"I want to. More than anything in this world. "

"And are you willing to fight for him? "

"Yes, but I need him to fight too. "

"We're not talking about him, we're talking about you. Are you willing to fight?", she repeats. I nod so she goes on, "Then f*cking fight for him!"

I shake my head and press my lips together.

"It's not so easy. "

Emma sighs and rolls her eyes.

"I know that you might feel intimidated by him. I get it. With Liam, I sometimes found it difficult to believe that someone like him would want to be with someone like me. But baby, he's just another human being like you and me. And f*ck it! You're worth this and more! You're a beautiful, smart and kind woman. Harry knows that. I can see that he truly likes you for who you are. It's you. You are the one that's got to see it. Like RuPaul always says, if you can't love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else?"

I laugh and hug her. I don't know what I'd do without her.

"Ok.", I nod, feeling my eyes fill with tears. "What do I do?"

"Call him, meet up with him and talk about how you're going to do it when he's on tour. But do it calmly and knowing that you both want this just as bad."

*****

"Harry Styles speaking."

Whoa, is that how he answers his business phone calls?

"Harry?"

"Layla?", he says, suddenly changing his tone to a much less formal, but rather surprised one.

"I was wondering if you'd like to meet sometime."

"Yes, of course. I'm actually at a meeting right now but I'll come by your house later if that's fine with you."

"Sure, that sounds great."