Kisses' POV
I'm here in my bed thinking and analyzing my feelings with donny.
Ewan ko ba,
Pero dahil sa mga nangyari between him and bella,
Donny and I slowly drifted apart from each other for this few weeks.
My feelings for him fall out little by little. Parang I can't take that I like someone na NGSB daw pero nakikipaghalikan naman with many girls. Then I felt pity for bella who seems strong and happy but hurt always shows in her eyes.
Suddebly my phone vibrates...
"Beep... beep.."
A message from donny.
"Kisses... 🥺🥺🥺😢😢😢"
I read the message and my heart sank with the sad and teary emoticons.
"Bakit?"
Maikling kong reply.
"Why it seems you'd move farther and farther from me?"
-reply naman ni donny.
"Huh? Ano ba yang pinagsasabi mo. Everything is the same between us. We do the same routine everyday with cindy.
You're thinking too much."
-deny ko naman.
"Ewan ko ba, parang ang layo-layo mo na kasi sa akin. Kisses if may nagawa akong mali please tell me."
"Donny, we're okay..
And We're friends.
Tulog ka na...
Late na. Goodnight."
I have to end our conversation.
Nuon when donny and I communicate through text, call and talk personally parang sasabog ang puso ko sa tuwa.
Pero ngayon, It feels awkward kahit sa text awkward pa rin.
Nag beep na naman yung phone ko.
"Goodnight too kisses...
Always remember na kahit ilang beses mo man ako itulak palayo.
I will be a mountain that cannot be move. Sorry pero ILYSB..."
I sigh. Ewan pero kinikilig ang puso ko sa ILYSB...
kasi I love that song so much.
Pero the truth is, natatakot ako kay donny.
Natatakot ako na maging katulad ako kina nichole at bella.
That fear creeps my soul out.
Knowing that I like that man tapos that man just thrown two beautiful girls easily parang I doubted donny and his feelings for me.
It started to wrap my warm heart with coldness.
So what? I should have no time to think those nonsense things!
love! men!
I have a lot on my plate this time.
I have to solve my kiss phobia first.
At yun ang mas dapat kong binibigyan ng priority as of this moment.
I almost close my eyes when my phone ring.
Bella calling.....
"Yes, bella?"
-wika ko kaagad.
I want to rest my stress mind and heart pero I cannot reject bella.
That girl, I don't know why...
pero I felt guilty sa sinapit niya.
I can't help it.
Donny dumped her because of me and she never show hatred on me for that.
"Kisses... "
-malungkot niyang sambit sa pangalan ko.
"Bakit? May nangyari ba?"
-taranta kong tanong.
Yung boses niya kasi ang lamig at ang lungkot. It shivers my spine.
"I guess kailangan ko nang lumayo sa'yo... ayaw kong ako ang dahilan ng pag-aaway ninyo no donny."
-naiiyak pa niyang turan.
"Says who?
Donny and I were okey.
Wag kang mag-alala."
-I assured her. Ayaw kong dagdagan ang sakit sa puso niya.
"Donny send me a message...
he ask me to stop brainwashing you.
I freak out kasi I never did such thing...
I'm innocent and grieving my dead heart in silence.
I could not hold this feeling any longer. It hurt me much."
-umiiyak na wika ni bella.
"Bella we've wronged you and i'm sorry for that. Don't take his message to your heart okay.
Alam natin ang totoo at yun ang importante. As for donny and, I we will settle it bukas and I'll make sure to clear your name ."
-I said those words to comfort and assure her na everything is alright.
Sana enough na tuh' to settle her mind.
"Thank you kisses.
I don't know what happens to me kung wala ka para makinig at maniwala sa akin. Kahit ikaw ang mahal ni donny, I can accept it. I know how kind you are.
I just need time to heal kaya sana wag na akong akusahan ni donny.
At sana ay maging okay na kayo."
-mahinahon namang turan ni bella.
I took a deep breath.
Atleast okay na siya.
We hang up and says our good night.
As for donny,
Well I guess this prove how inconsiderate and short minded he is.
His actions make as drifted farther from each other.
So, he must blame himself.
♧♧♧vineofashes♧♧♧
