<3 kisses POV }>
2 weeks na ang nakalipas nung bisitahin ako ni cindy.
Atleast we've talk in the phone sometimes.
And guess what, I bought a new phone! My new personal phone!
Yung phone na hindi alam nina kate at niel.
Yung phone na intended to contact for donny and cindy only.
Tsk... Sometimes I wonder, bakit kailangan kung gawin ang ganitong bagay. parang may ginagawa akong kasalanan gayong wala naman?
Haizt kisses, napaka eng-eng mo talaga...
Nilabas ko na ang bago kong CP, at pumasok ako sa loob ng comfort room. Mabuti na yung nag-iingat, ayaw kong tadtarin ng tanong nang kambal.
Tinext ko kaagad si cindy.
"Cindy, si kisses tuh!, This is my new exclusive number... This is meant for you and donny only. Please save it..
I miss you..."
Excited kong pinindot ang send button habang matamis na ngumiti.
Tapos I take a deep breath. I don't know pero para kasing nenirbyos ako.
Then my phone beeps,
"Noted besh... So okay lang ba na ibigay ko kay donny ang exclusive number mo?"
Reply ni cindy akin.
Sinagot ko lang ito ng shy emoji ☺️at like sign 👍 then lumabas na ako sa comfort room at pumasok sa aking klase.
Tumabi kaagad sa akin sina bella kate at niel ng makita ako.
"Hi, kisses... Kumusta na ang pakiramdam mo?"
Panimulang tanong ni niel.
"I'm fine. Thanks for asking"
Matipid kong sagot.
"Kisses, labas tayo... Matagal-tagal na din noong huli tayong mag hang-out."
Anyaya naman ni bella.
"Nah! I have a session with my therapy..."
"Gusto mong samahan kita para hindi ka ma bored? I can skip class for you."Wika pa ni niel.
"Wag na niel, it's a private session. No friends allowed."
Pag-reject ko sa offer niya.
I pray na sana pumasok na ang professor namin. Mabuti nalang at dinig ni God ang panalangin ko.
Nang matapos ang klase naman ay kaagad akong nagpaalam kina niel at bella.
Naglalakad-lakad ako sa may back garden ng campus when cindy texted me.
"Besh, can you see donny now, robie texted me that he pass out. Nasa yoga room sila. Please take care of him for me. Nasa klase pa kasi ako... Mwuahhh thanks.😚😚😘"
Napailing nalang ako sa mensahe ni cindy na nireplyan ko nalang nang maikling "Okay."
Napangiti at kinakabahan, this would be our first meeting after almost 3 months. Hindi ko alam paano ko haharapin si donny pero I have to this. I need to save our friendship.
Hindi naman kalayuan ang yoga room mula dito sa back garden. After 5 minutes ay nakarating din ako sa location nila. Mula sa kinatatayuan ko ngayon, tanaw ko si donny na nakasquat with markus and robie.
I observe him from afar, ang laki na ng ipinayat ni donny at mukha siyang haggard. Nanlalalim at nangigitim ang gilid ng kanyang mata and his red pouty lips turns purplish. Awang-awa ako sa hitsura niya. And I ask myself,
Why? How come he looks like that?
Napabuntong hininga ako. I can't accept na isa ako sa mga dahilan why donny look like that. I can't believe na ganyan kalaki ang epekto ng pagkakalayo namin sa kanya.
Well, yeah sobra akong nagrereklamo sa mga pagbabago sa buhay ko when I chose to separate myself from donny and cindy; But compare to what happen to him... Parang langit at lupa ang pagkakaiba ng epekto nito sa aming buhay.
My eyes starts to sting and droplets of water escape down to my cheeks.
I force myself not to sob.
My conscience starts to tickle my heart and soul that making it feels heavy.
My guilts screech and bites the muscles in my chest that it seems it bleeds blood while my heart seems crying and keep asking me; "Why? Why do you need to hurt him like that? Is this what you want?"
I wipe my tears and decided to save him. I can't let him to continue to dwell in that sadness.
I didn't understand why I did such a mistake, gayong it did not makes me feel good!
When it only bring heartaches and pain to both of us! When it brings us in the dark abyss.
When it put me and him in a situation where we miss each other's presence so, so much!
I need to stop this!
I have to end this nonsense torture!
All my inhibitions, fear and doubts disappear. I run towards him,
Bahala na kung ano man ang susunod na manyayrari basta this time I really need to be with him.
I want to rescue him and bring back the happiness in his life.
I need to be selfish and stop caring on bella and niel!
This time there is only Kirsten and Donny!
I pushed the door then enter the roon with all my courage; but for any reason I feel calm and compose.
As I took my step all my feelings and emotions of longing, happiness, worry and relief rushed in my veins making my face red as tomato while drying my throat.
My mouth's nerves stiffen and my voice seems rough and weak as I said..
"Donny..... Donny...
Oh Donny... I miss you!!!"
,🍁🍁🍁🌹vineofashes🌹🍁🍁🍁
