THE OLD ME BACK

Chapter 29

After expressing out everything that seemed so burden to me, I hurriedly walked out and directly went to our room. I left Banjo there with his own realizations. Both of my eyes were the witness how he got a hard time to tame me because he didn't know what to do when I said those lines dramatically. I wanted him to feel what I was really feeling then -- my pain, agony, regrets and sadness.

Those students I passed by earlier while on my way to the classroom, I accidentally bumped on them because of a hurry. The only thing that was on my mind was to go away from that area which called most attention. I was so preoccupied then but still managed myself to continue heading at.

Upon entering in our room, one of my classmates whispered to her seatmate while she's looking at me. Others looked at me unbelievably. Perhaps they could not believe I got absent for the first time in the morning.

"Hi Alesha, we already have the recent top 10 of the class," my seatmate told me when I already sat on my chair. I felt nervous all of a sudden when she gave me a plain smile afterwards. "Still, congratulations to you. You're still part of the top 10 but I knew you can go higher like before."

Losing all my strength after she said that, I leaned on the chair and sighed. I thought I could be consistent in being the top. But this quarter was very unfortunate for me.

"So class, before I start my lesson, I want to congratulate all students who excelled very much in academic and become part of the top 10. Let's give them a big hand!"

"Congrats Almira. Finally, you won over her," uttered from the nearby row. Many congratulated her and almost all of them were so glad for her.

"It's ok, Alesha. You can do better on this quarter," my seatmate consoled me with these words. I responded a plain smile to let her know that it's nothing mean to me about it.

But the truth was, I started blaming myself for what happened. I was afraid my parents would know about it. They always pushed me to be at the top, to be at my best, to be at the highest.

But on this part, I failed.

During the class discussion, I can't help myself to steal sight from Hanky who was focusing his attention on the white board. I realized that after all the traps I have made, my feelings was still for him despite the pain and heartbreaks. It's all because of him why I was at my best in every field I was in. But I looked at outside of the window right away when Kurt caught me stealing glances. Next was Zack when Kurt whispered on him as I glanced at Hanky again.

Gosh, I started to feel shame from these two guys who were my classmates and at the same time exes. How much more if all the Boylight members were in the same room and sitting on the same row?

"Alesha, can I help you with that?" This guy stopped walking in front of me while I was bringing several books to return it to my locker. It was already class dismissal when I heard a familiar voice during my walk to the locker room.

"I can manage this. You can go," I replied and passed him by. I didn't look at him even just once.

"Are you still angry at me, Alesha?"

"Why would I be? Is there any reason I would be really angry at you?" I could not control myself but to look at him face to face. Argh, I thought I could manage not to see his face.

"I didn't mean to judge you at all, Alesha. I thought I could help you with by presenting myself for your trap so that it would go so smooth and very easy."

"But the trap is now officially closed. Just like what I said earlier, I won't do it anymore."

He plainly smiled. "Maybe you should close now because you already broke my heart on what you said to me earlier. Alesha, you know what, you helped me realized to see and feel beyond we just see from our eyes."

"That's also what I learned from the situation I am currently going through," I responded with a heave of sigh.

"So, all things for the trap ended that way. Can we still be friends?"

I simply nodded then his smile got wider as I was starting to turn behind him. Every step I took away was a relief for me because I wanted to avoid every guy who became part of my trap, except him.

When I already reached the parking lot, I told my driver to fetch me home directly. I was in my room already, lying on my bed while playing the music Exception by Paramore, when someone texted me all of a sudden. So I was urged to check it because I was doing nothing here, just flashing back my memories with him.

Where you at? Hanky's here with a girl. Come over now.
From: +639306226423

Whose number is this? I managed to reply on this text. After a while, I got a reply on the same number.

It's Thea. We're here at Hideout Bar. Hurry up, bitch.
From: +639306226422

Hurriedly, I composed myself by getting up on the bed. I quickly put a light make up on my face. I would make sure that I'm really damn gorgeous when I get there. When I checked the time, it's already 9:30 in the evening. It's been almost four hours of lying on the bed after I got home from school.

After getting out of my bedroom, I suddenly have the second thought if my mom would catch me sneaking out. My curfew to be at our home is just until 8, onwards would never be considered in any reason I could tell. But I could make a way out here.

Thea calling...

I was already outside of her house when I decided to answer her call.

"Hey bitch!" She called me out over the phone. "Hurry up now. This girl is dancing with Hanky. They're both drunk."

Over the line, I could hear the shouts and yells in the middle of the rock music.

"Wait. There's no vehicle passing by." I was getting rattled because of what she said. Argh! Why on earth this road had no vehicle passing by at this most important time?

"Just run. Please run, now. You can be here at 10."

I abruptly hang up her call. Without a choice, I quickly ran with all of my strength I earned while lying on my bed earlier. I ran and just ran. I was able to reach there at 10:05, so tired and sweaty I was. Useless I did to put a light make up, my goodness.

"Come on, Alesha. Sit back first and relax." Thea uttered after giving me a small bottle of beer "Drink first and earn courage to have a fight later. Whahaha!"

I drank the beer right away and in just three shots, I made it full empty. I really had no plan to be on this place, to be with the company of Thea, if it's not because of Hanky. Why on earth I still have this stupid feelings for him? I do really hate myself in that reason.

"Look at them," Thea said after giving me another bottle of beer again. "They're enjoying each other's company. Aren't you jealous of that?"

I stood right away from the couch and approached the two. I could really see in my eyes how Hanky was having a good time while this girl was dancing, surrounding him. Maybe I could teach her a lesson that would help her awake to her consciousness.

"YOU SLUT!" I directly watered her out through a bottle of beer that made her stop dancing and reacted hysterically.

"Stop that! Hey!" Hanky controlled my hand to stop from what I was doing but he got shocked when he saw me doing it. "A-Alesha? Why are you here?"

I wanted to respond him but someone intervened. "How dare you!" I got to be bent when this slut tweaked my hair. So I pushed her away all of a sudden.

"Know your territory. He's still mine!" I shouted. This made everyone shocked and the rock music playing stopped all of a sudden when I threw the bottle of beer on the floor near her so it created a cracking sound.