THE OLD ME BACK

Chapter 17

Waking up late, I roamed my eyes around to see if I was really on my bed. I was right, the pinkish wall with my huge frame and girly stuff were present. However, there's something I could feel it was not all right. The palpitation of my heart became faster when I hear the shouts of my mom downstairs.

Whoa!

I hurriedly got up from my bed and fixed myself so that if ever she would already be here, she would find me already awake too early. My goodness, my head was aching. I did not like what I was feeling and at the same time I had this feeling of lying on my bed all day long.

What did happen to me yesterday? It seemed so strange I got this feeling of laziness. Sighed.

"Who pushed her to party in a very late at night? Do you know who?!" My mom's voice was really loud. My eyes got widened because of her query.

I remembered Thea right away, who approached me when I was about to go out from the school gate. I got freak out because of the next happenings when we were already in the club. Whoa, it really happened like I didn't expect it at all.

I must be ready at this very hour what to explain. I would be really dead!

Gosh, I wondered how I got home from that club.

When I went downstairs, the first thing that I encountered right away were the eyes of my mom darted on me. She's holding a magazine while my dad was drinking his coffee. I started shaking while I was walking to the couch and greeted them two.

"What's good in the morning,  Alesha? Why did you come home late?" She put the magazine on the glass table after she asked that question.

I gulped and sighed.

"We finished our project, mom."

My dad looked at me after he put the cup on the table.

"But someone said you were in the club last night. Can you tell us the truth?"

I sighed again. As far as I knew, I could not lie to my parents when they taught me to be honest at all times as much as possible.

"Hey Alesha!"

I still continued my walk when someone tapped my shoulder. Thea was already in front of me coming from behind. She was smiling to me as if there's nothing wrong happened last night.

"What's up? Why didn't you come in our table a while ago?"

I sighed.

"I don't like what happened last night, and I don't want to happen it again, " I told them straight, their reactions were surprised.

"But admit it, Alesha, you enjoyed last night. It helped you vent out your stress."

"But my parents got mad at me about it. So please leave me alone. I wanted to be alone for now."

"But Alesha! We're here to help you!" Thea insisted, but I managed to walk out.

As much as I can manage myself, I don't want to find comfort from them. They really were partygoers and easy-go-lucky people. Besides, I have a lot of friends but I was the one who just to be alone in the meantime. They were the reason why my both parents got mad at me, and I guessed it's rare to happen.

"Look at her. I'm really sad for what happened."

"How gorgeous, famous and talented she is but still got cheated by her boyfriend. How must be pitiful she is!"

Those murmurs I heard, it just entered in my ear and let out from my other ear. I don't take those things seriously. Choosing to focus what will happen today, I earned courage to face it on.

It's already our examination today, and I wanted to be still at the top. Good thing that I studied few days prior to this, that's why I was not nervous that much even though I was drunk last night. Up until now, I could not really believe I got drunk. That's the first time I drank liquors but I could not understand why I did like the taste of it. So scary!

When I got back to our room, without further do, the test started. I didn't know why during my reading of questions in a test, that's the start I felt the so-called hangover. Argh! Why now that I had to give my best understanding and analyis?

"Good luck for the result of your exam! Goodbye, class!"

While fixing my things in my bag, I could see in my peripheral vision that someone would approach me. I hurriedly packed my things up and got out from our room. Honestly, I don't want to talk to him because of what happened. As of now, I wanted to have space. Though we were not break yet, but I know it would be its end.

Going to parking lot beside our school, I decided to go home early. While we were on our way home with my personal driver, I was really sorry because I lied to him. He got involved of what I did last night that's why he got almost fired by my parents, but I was the one who asked sorry from my parents.

Inside my room, I lay on my bed and got teary-eyed by overthinking. I was asessing myself if where did I go wrong, and what are those things that I was lacking of. I knew I was just carried away by my emotions, but I couldn't help but to ask myself if I could handle more the pain if I would let him go.

Ever since, he was my crush and he's the reason why I changed myself for the better, so that he would like me. In short, he was my inspiration. I studied hard and aimed the top, so that I could have the qualities that most boys do look for. He would have no reason to look for and flirt with other girls because I was almost perfect then.

I thought it would be a simple rational to make things not complicated. But I was wrong.

On the next day, I attended my classes again. I had already in my mind of those people I should avoid from. Starting from Hanky,   that bitch, Thea and the girls, the murmurs, and the toxic people.

During lunch time, I planned to bring a book to the food court so that I would have another thing to do aside from eating. I knew there would be no one I'd be with so it's better to spend time with the book. While I was eating my favorite pork steak, I didn't expect he would sit in front of me.

With that, our eyes met each other but I looked away after a second. He didn't deserve my attention, that's supposed to be, but when he uttered sorry, I looked at him again for a little bit long.

"Sorry for what? You already knew that the worth of your sorry is getting less the moment you utter it again and again," I seriously said. He bowed for a while, and when he managed to look at me again, he plainly smiled as if there's something to be smiled about.

Due to my moodswing, I abruptly got my book from the table. I was about to walk out when he prevented me to do so by grabbing my arm. But I still managed to make force to let go of my arm, that's why the pages of the book got flipped. And to my surprise, there's a card fell on the floor. He picked up the card right away and read it.

"Hey! That's not yours! Give it back to me now!"

He stared at me furiously after a sudden torn apart of the card. As far as I remember, that was what Thea took inside my locker. What was it supposed to me now?

All of a sudden, he cussed Tyler, one of his members of Boylight group.

"Can you explain that to me?" He pointed out the card that was already in pieces on the floor. "All this time, he liked you while we're already an us?!"