Roxy

*chapter 40: Hawaii!

We were all sitting comfortably on the posh chairs as we took off. It was a private plane so the whole plane was ours. Ronan and Rolland sat opposite Ximena and I.

Raelynn, Ranger and Amalia were sitting at the bar stools (well Raelynn was on top of the countertop between Ranger and Amalia) while Ruby was in the bedroom sleeping. I hope.

She's been acting quite off lately. I sure hope this Vacation will be good for her, for all of us. I don't know why I feel this anxiety at the pit of my stomach, like something terrible is about to happen....

"Right Roxy?" Ronan's voice brought me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"Told you she zoned out again, she thinks too much." Rolland said taking a sip of his wine. He likes that thing too much.

"You should try it sometime, maybe someone might actually want to be with you." Ximena fired.

Interesting.

"Someone like you perhaps?" Rolland wiggled his eyebrows and Ximena scoffed.

"We were saying that you've given up smoking. Right?" Ronan asks, waiting intently on my answer.

Come to think of it, I haven't really been smoking lately. All this family drama has made me reduce the amount of cocaine I take.

"I still do it in the night when you guys are asleep." Probably shouldn't have said that.

"Why? I told you that thing can kill you. You have to stop." Ronan says and I glare at him.

"And since when do you tell me what to do?"

"He's not. He just doesn't want you to hurt yourself." Ximena placed her hand on mine. "Hey, since it's a long trip, let's play never have I ever."

"How do you play?"

"Well if I say never have I ever fought, and you have, you raise your hand and tell us how, why and when." Ximena explains and Ronan leans forward in his seat.

"Sounds fun,"

"Let's play."

"Roxy, you playing?"

"Sure, why not." I say and Ximena smiles.

"Okay okay. I'll ask first. Uh....never have I ever...made a fool of myself in public?" Ximena says and she and Rolland raise their hands. "How?" She asks Rolland.

"On the night of my first wine launch. I was stuck in the bathroom before my big speech, when I finally got out I got to the stage and I noticed everyone was laughing at me."

"Why were they laughing at you?"

"My... zipper was down and uh...my stuff was poking out." He says and Ximena turns pink." Yeah your turn."

"Well, during my quinceniera-"

"What's that?"

"It's a Mexican tradition and celebration. Once a girl turns 15 she becomes a woman- anyway my mom got me this dress that was ten times bigger than me and... well I'm sure you know the rest." She blushed.

We continued playing and it turns out I have never done or experienced anything they have. And whenever it was my turn to ask I turned the opportunity down. It's not like I can be all ' never have I ever castrated, killed or amputated someone '.

Why am I so different? Why can't I be normal like them? Have crushes, have an embarrassing first day at school, get drunk at a party and not remember anything. I envy all of them.