Roxy

chapter 20: disgrace to the Ferrers

After a few minutes of roaming the mansion like a mad woman, I finally found the indoor gym. I walked in and got started on the punching bag, I don't bother wrapping my hands and immediately start throwing punches.

This is all not fair. For my dad, my mom, uncle John, my siblings and me. This whole situation is so fraustrating and messed up.

Every passing second I think, I hit the punching bag harder. I just feel like I am not hitting it hard enough. I feel like my punches are slow, like something is holding me back.

I try giving it another blow, then another, and another. I keep going, harder and harder, but it just isn't enough.

I understand uncle John's pain. I have never felt that kind of pain, but I understand it. But what about me?

I am going through pain as well. I can't rest peacefully if I don't kill the bastard that ordered my parents deaths. I just can't!

And with that I give the bag another punch which causes it to tear and spill all it's contents. I stare at the sand as it spills out of the bag for a few minutes.

I feel a presence behind me that makes me turn around. It is uncle John. He is leaning against the door frame, watching me with keen interest.

I stare back at him and everything he said comes flooding into my memory. I walk closer to him, but he doesn't budge. But that was until I wrapped my arms around him.

He stumbled back a bit from the shock, I can feel his eyes are wide. I smile when I feel his hands on my waist.

"I have always been called a disgrace to the Ferrer name" he said placing his chin on my head.

"No, You're not. You are loved" I whispered against his chest. The room fell into silence as I pulled away. I looked up at him and smiled. But then my brows furrowed from confusion.

"What about Ricardo?" I asked.

"Who?" He says confused and my eyes widened.

******Flashback*****

"Ricky!" I exclaimed as I ran to my older brother. He carried me and spun me around in the air causing me to giggle.

"There's my princess!" He exclaimed as he put me down. "I hope you have been giving mom and dad serious problems" he whispered in my ear and I nodded.

"Good girl, I trained you well" he said ruffling my hair and I giggled.

"And what exactly is she being a good girl about?" My dad said coming into the room.

"Uuh...." Ricardo and I said in unison as we try coming up with an excuse. But then the cries of Rolland interrupts us.

"Where are my favorite twins!" Ricardo exclaimed as he ran to Ronan and Rolland's room. I am left with my dad and he sends me a questioning look. And before I knew it I am running to the twin's room.

I stepped in and see Ricardo holding Ronan in his arms while mom is trying to calm Rolland down.

"This one is a quiet one isn't he?" Ricardo asked looking at Ronan.

"Yeah he only cries when his hungry. But Rolland here...." My mom says making Ricardo to chuckle.

"Ah, look here, little Ronan is already asleep" Ricardo says putting him down on the bed.

"Thanks honey, why don't you go stay with Roxanna for a while. She really missed you. Especially when you're going back in an hour" my mom said and my eyes widened.