Roxy

chapter 45: Lost in Hawaii

(Rolland's P. O. V)

Anger.

Jealousy.

Pain.

That is the only thing I ever cause and feel. I have no idea where I'm going, I just keep running and running. I notice the confused looks people give me as I ran passed them but I didn't care.I didn't even notice the tears that fell from my eyes as I ran.

I'm an idiot. A freaking fucking idiot. Of all things I do to her, I punch her. I freaking punch her in the face what is wrong with me?! I can't bare to look at her face anymore. I'm a monster that only hurts the woman he loves-

Wait what?!

I halt. Did I really just say-

"Rolland!" Next thing I knew, I was tackled to the floor as a car zoomed passed us. I didn't even realize how heavily I was breathing. I looked up to stare into the most beautiful blue eyes I've ever seen.

"A-are you okay?" She asks with shaky breath and I nod. We sit up but we were still sitting on the sidewalk. Realization hits me and I turn to Ximena. I wince at the sight of her fat bruise that still looks like it's swelling more.

"D-did you just jump in front of a car to save me?"

"Technically, I pushed both of us away from the car, so...."

"Yeah but you could have still gotten hurt."

"But I didn't."

I sigh and stand up. I give her my hand to help her up and she accepts. The second her soft skin touches mine I pull away. Geez! Did you just burn me?!

"Ow!" She complained and I looked at her with worried eyes.

"Sorry, are you alright?"

"Yeah...." She says getting up herself. "What was that?"

"I-I don't know." There was silence between us before I spoke again. "You shouldn't have followed me."

"I was worried you would do something stupid." She said and I snorted.

"I already did something stupid."

"And the answer was running away?" She asked and I just stared at her. She's so beautiful, even with the bruise that is swelling on her face.

Because of me.

"I'm so sorry." My voice came out as a weak whisper.

She smiled at me, even though I caught her wincing at the pain on her cheek. "You know it's becoming a daily thing for you to be apologizing to me."

She said then her smile dropped when I didn't smile back. I know she's just trying to lighten the mood but, all I do is cause her pain.

"No wait! I didn't mean it like that! I... Er..." I chuckled a bit at her nervousness and she blushed.

"You look cute when you're nervous." I muse and she blushes harder. "But I'm really sorry I hit you. It's like I can't do anything other than cause you pain."

"Hey look at me." She cupped my cheeks with her soft hands. It burned me, but it was a burn I enjoyed. "It was just an accident, don't blame yourself okay."

"It's just that I thought you were Ronan-"

"So you would hit your own brother? for what?" For you. I looked away but she grabbed my cheeks forcing me to look at her. "Listen to me Rolland. Never again, will you lay a hand on your brother. And stop blaming yourself for something that isn't your fault. Do you hear me?" I nod. Damn, this is the first time I've ever been ordered around like this. But I love it.