Once Again | l.yngyng [ON-GOING]

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Alexa

Nakahinga ako ng maluwag nang hindi ko na makita si Yang. Nandito kasi kami ni Hyunjin sa Ice Dream. Oo, Ice Dream and name ng ice cream parlor dito sa park malapit sa subdivision namin. I'm kinda craving for some Ice Cream so I went out and I kinda miss Hyunjin actually. Hyunjin is my first friend in Canada. He was my blockmate and my very best friend. Hindi ko naman talaga siya boyfriend but we just treat each other as brother and sister. Baby ang tawag niya sa akin dahil sabi niya he feels like an older brother for me daw. I just nodded and he started calling me that.

"So, was it a guy?" He asked.

I remained silent and napabuntong-hininga.

"So it is a guy. Damn Baby ang dami mo namang lalaki." He chuckled.

Agad na napataas ang kilay ko at inirapan siya.

"Alam mo, bumalik ka na sa Canada. Kahit dito inaasar mo pang ako. Hindi ka nakakatulong you know?"

"But I wanna help you, that's why I'm here."

Natahimik na lang ako at patuloy na kinakain ang ice cream. Gusto kong lumayo sa mga tao dito. Ayoko muna sana silang makita. I wanna escape from this world. This pressure. It isn't healthy for me.

"May condo ka diba?" I asked.

"Meron, bakit? You wanna sleep there?" He asked.

"Yeah, I wanna stay there for until you're here."

"Are you sure? Saka bumili ka na lang! Ang yaman-yaman niyo eh!"

"No, my parents won't let me buy. Babayaran ko ang bills mo, take it or leave it?"

"Okay! Okay! Calm down! I'll take it."

"Good. Sunduin mo ako mamayang 7 sa amin okay?"

"Okay."

I just hope a peace for a few days. Yung walang nang gugulo, walang nagpapaalala ng past ko. At walang nagpapaalala sa nangyari sa amin ni Yang. Sorry but I forgot how it feels to be loved. I don't know what love is anymore. I don't know myself anymore.