Brooklyn Revival (completed)

Chapter 69- Baby Max

Magnus had managed to change Max's diaper and now was reading through an article online on how to make a bottle of milk. He knew the basics but wanted to be completely sure that what he was doing was right. He was glad when he looked in the bag and found a bottle already made and put it in a jug of hot water to warm it up. He was stroking Max's cheek when Alec walked in and leaned against the kitchen doorway.

"Is it okay?" Alec asked him.

"It? He is fine" Magnus frowned confused. "Why are you being a bit hostile?"

"I'm not I just... I don't know... What do you want me to be like? Happy? Dancing around? Throwing a party?" Alec shrugged.

"No, but a bit of support would be a real help. Maybe some understanding"

"I've just found out that my partner has a kid with a woman and you want me to act like what? I don't know what to say or feel right now!" Alec frowned.

"I slept with her about a year ago. We didn't even know each other Alexander. I... I'm sorry but I didn't ask for this" Magnus sighed.

"I know. I know that. I just... You look so happy. I didn't expect you to want the baby that's all"

"Why wouldn't I? You know I want a family" Magnus asked confused.

"You want a family? I didn't know you wanted kids?" Alec frowned.

"Of course I want kids. Don't you?" Magnus frowned back.

"Not really. The good thing about being gay, no kids" Alec shrugged. "I used to help look after Jace, Izzy and Max when I was younger. I don't want kids"

"Wait... are you kidding me right now? You don't want kids? but... but what about.. what about Max?" Magnus stammered, shocked by the revelation.

"I have you. I don't need to expand past that" Alec said, he couldn't understand the problem.

"But in the hospital, when I was talking about kids you agreed?" Magnus gasped.

"I didn't agree. You were talking about it and I listened. I just assumed it was because you were panicked or something that you were rambling on about kids. I never said I wanted kids" Alec sighed and looked down. "Are you annoyed at me right now?"

"Yes, I'm annoyed! I thought you wanted kids. For us to have a family and now you're saying you don't at all? You sound like it's not even up for discussion" Magnus said, his voice low but anger was clear.

"Why would you think I wanted kids? Have I ever said that I wanted kids?" Alec snapped back.

"You said it sounded like a good idea when I was 'rambling'," Magnus snapped back, making sure to make 'rambling' sound bitter. "Did you just lie to me?"

"I didn't lie! I was trying to make you calmer!" Alec exclaimed.

"Don't talk to me like that!" Magnus said back angrily, his voice quiet because he didn't want to upset Max. "What are we even doing then?"

"Are you kidding me right now? We are going to have a life together. Kids don't mean life. Kids aren't everything. Am I not enough for you? That you need kids or even this baby to make it complete!" Alec glared.

"It's not about you not being enough. People have kids. It's nothing to do with their partners not being enough! It's just a part of making it... it..."

"It what?" Alec snapped. "It, complete?"

"Fine. Yes. It's a part of making a family complete. To me it is! I never had siblings. I never had a family. It was me and my dad, so yes. I want a family. I want me, you and kids. I want my son" Magnus exclaimed exasperated.

"Well, I don't want kids," Alec stated outright.

"Then what are we doing? Clearly, we want different things in life" Magnus said, his voice cracking with the pain he felt.

"Seriously? You... you want to break up... because of him?" Alec gasped as he pointed to Max

"No, of course, I don't. I love you but I don't know if I can live a life with no kids and what you're basically asking is for me to give up my son" Magnus sighed.

"You didn't even know he existed till 20 minutes ago and if you're already putting him before me, before us, then you clearly don't love me enough," Alec said sadly.

"Alexander, how can you be like that? This is my son. My flesh and blood. Not some random person's baby. This baby is a part of me. Why are you being so cold to him?" Magnus frowned, unable to believe how cold Alec was.

"You don't even know that. You don't even know one hundred per cent that this kid is yours and you are already saying that you have chosen him over me. You know what. Fine. You've clearly made your decision" Alec nodded as he threw his hands up in the air in exasperation.

"You know what? I have. I choose my baby. I choose my son. You know why? Because that is what good parents do. They prioritise their children. I never received that love from my father, neither did you, and I am not about to become like my father. If you want to be like yours, then that's your decision but don't expect me to stick by you for acting like an idiot" Magnus sighed and turned his back as he picked up the bottle. Checking it on his wrist and saw that it wasn't too hot. He had fed Madzie as he baby so he knew how to check the temperature.

"Fine. Then we are done here" Alec said as his voice cracked. "I'm not the monster you think I am by the way. So you can stay here until you get a place for you and the baby. I'll stay at Jace's"

Magnus didn't reply. His heart was so full a second ago and now it was aching as if someone had stabbed him. He swallowed the lump in his throat, not wanting to cry at all but when he heard the front door open and close he let his tears go and walked to the living room, setting a pillow for him to rest his arm with Max in as he began to feed his son. A small sad smile on his face as he looked at Max.

"We will be okay. I will look after you, Maxie" Magnus said to the small baby.