Brooklyn Revival (completed)

Chapter 40- Disorientated

Magnus hadn't noticed but after he fell asleep, Alec had carried him to bed and covered him over. So when Magnus woke up, he was a little disoriented by his surroundings and the darkness of the room which only had a little light coming in from the shining moon. Leaning over Magnus checked his phone and saw that it was ten o'clock at night.

It was then that something caught his eye at the corner of the room. It looked like a figure of a woman standing there looking at him but it was too dark to tell. Reaching over, he turned on his lamp and looked back but the figure was gone. Sighing, he sat up and rubbed his face, thinking that he needed a holiday and the stress and depressiveness was all getting to him too much.

Magnus realised then that Alec wasn't asleep next to him. He wasn't even in the room which was odd because, since his father and Camille's accident, he barely left him alone without telling him where he was going first. Magnus guessed he was in the bathroom so he got up to go and find him when he heard Alec's voice. It sounded like he was on the phone and was angry with whoever he was speaking too.

"No.. You said you had handled it! That you had done it... now you're telling me that you didn't... Right... bullshit!... And what do you suppose I tell Magnus then? He doesn't deserve this... SORT IT NOW!" Alec snapped. Magnus listened to Alec talk wishing he knew who or what he was talking about. His mind going into overdrive at that moment but he thought it would be best to talk to Alec first.

"Alec?" Magnus called out quietly. Alec turned, almost jumping out of fear when heard Magnus' voice which only made Magnus more suspicious.

"Oh... Magnus... Are you okay? How long you been there?" Alec asked but Magnus could hear the slight panic in his voice.

"Alexander, who were you talking to? It sounded serious..." Magnus commented before he swallowed hard wondering what Alec would say.

"Oh, that? Nothing, No one... just... just some cold caller," Alec smiled and came over to kiss Magnus' cheek but Magnus pushed him away gently.

"You said you thought they had handled something and what were you supposed to tell me now... Alec... Alec, did you do something?" Magnus asked and looked down.

"It doesn't matter... but Magnus I need to know what you are asking me. By your tone and demeanour, you can't be thinking something good about me now," Alec sighed lifting Magnus' gaze to his with a finger underneath his chin. "What's on your mind?"

"Alec..." Magnus swallowed and took a few deep breaths. "Alec, did you have something to do with the accident?"

"No," Alec stated as he looked at Magnus sadly. Magnus felt awful in that moment and the fact that he would let his mind make him think that made him feel so stupid. It hurt even more when Alec took his fingers away and stepped back.

"I'm sorry. I... I'm so sorry... I didn't know what to think. I heard your conversation and I was already freaked out because I thought I saw someone in the room and then... then I let my mind get confused. Alexander, please forgive me," Magnus sobbed as he stepped closer and sighed in relief when Alec held him.

"I... It's okay" Alec whispered. "But the fact that you would let your mind think I would do something like that... that I would not only kill someone but two people, and that it would be your father and ex really does hurt."

Magnus looked up and tightened his grip around Alec but felt so much more heartbreak when Alec shook his head and pulled his arms from around his waist so he could step away again. Magnus looking at him desperately.

"Alec please... please forgive me," Magnus sobbed, his face streaming.

"I'll always forgive you angel but for now... now I need to go out and clear my head ok? I promise you that I will be back later." Alec said more forcefully in his voice so Magnus would know he was serious.

"Okay," Magnus nodded and wiped his eyes. He believed Alec's words that he would come back but also was terrified that he had pushed Alec too far with basically calling him a murderer.

Alec kissed Magnus' cheek before heading to the front door. Looking at Magnus and smiling slightly before leaving the apartment. Magnus broke down at that moment. The second the door shut, his legs gave out and he fell to the ground in floods of tears. He was terrified that Alec would leave him and he would have to move out. That he would be jobless because he wouldn't be allowed to continue in the band. That he would be completely alone.

He had managed to drag himself off the floor and onto the couch after twenty minutes of crying. Laying there and feeling like his body was in so much pain as he cuddled himself and shivered. He had barely enough time to notice a shadow moving slightly before his eyes fluttered shut as he cried himself to sleep.

'I'm driving. I'm driving so fast. The wind is whipping through my hair as I drive down a long hill. The sun beating on my face as I have the convertible roof down. I'm having the time of my life. I notice I am nearing the end of the road and brake but I don't stop. I repetitively pump the brakes but I still don't stop. Suddenly, Alexander is standing there at the end of the road waving to me. He thinks I can stop but I can't. I try and yell at him to move out the way but no words come out. Not a single word. He frowns as I get near, confused as to why I'm not stopping. I try and yell again but nothing. All I could do was sob my heart out as my car hits Alec. Both of us flying off the edge of the cliff and then I'm falling. Falling into a dark abyss. There is nothing around me. No Alec. No sights. Just blackness. Again, I have no voice to call for help. I can see a floor approaching and I try and stop but I can't. Only falling-'

Magnus woke up when the door banged hard and looked up to see Alec had come home. He went to jump up to greet him when he felt a sharp pain in his leg and looked down to see he was bleeding. His eyes flew open in a panic and look down to see a deep scratch in his leg as Alec came over to talk to him but stopped when he saw the cut.

"Magnus... Magnus, what did you do?" Alec asked panicked as he rushed over and got some paper towels and held it over the wound.

"I... I don't know. I cried when you left, got onto the couch and fell asleep. I didn't... I don't remember..." Magnus frowned, the dream still stuck in his mind but he couldn't understand the cut in his leg. "I guess I scratched it on something but was too upset to notice."

"It's pretty big for you not to notice. Are you ok?" Alec asked as he looked at him.

"No. I'm sorry. I am so sorry for what I said and thought. Please, Alec, I can't live without you. I'm so frightened and depressed right now and I need you," Magnus sobbed and fell into Alec's body, clutching him tightly. "I love you, Alexander. I love you so much, more than you will ever know."

"I love you too, Magnus. It's okay. We're okay. I'm not going anywhere," Alec cooed into Magnus' ear as he held him back, stroking the back of Magnus' hair softly and calmingly.

Magnus was about to say something when the door banged hard. Someone knocking at it continuously. Alec frowned as he looked at Magnus and back to the door before getting up and creeping toward it. When he got there, Alec looked back at Magnus confused as to who could be banging on their door like that at three in the morning.

"Careful," Magnus whispered as Alec got closer but the noise stopped as Alec approached the door. He went to the door anyway and looked through the peeping glass in the door, sighing and rolling his eyes. "Who is it?"

"Stupid kids" Alec grumbled out. "There's no one there now. They must just be messing around"

Magnus nodded but was still unconvinced as he wrapped his arms tightly around himself. He knew he was probably just being paranoid but he was starting to feel like everything was connected to his father and Camille. That he was being haunted by the pair because of his choices. He was going to say something to Alec about it but then decided against it, feeling like he would come across as crazy so instead, he smiled slightly and stood up.

"Shall we go to bed?" Magnus asked as he held out his hand to Alec, grateful when he took it, and they headed down to Magnus' room.

"I think we both need cuddles toni-..." Alec stopped as he went through the door and gasped. Magnus gasping too as the walked into their room. The words 'GAYS GO TO HELL!" Painted in red on the wall.