Loving Lennix

11. Its not the end, but its not the same

Jaxon POV

"You just couldn't help yourself could you Jaxon? You had to fuck with me. Now she's upset with us both and upset with herself. Making her cry last night because you were too much of a coward to deal with it wasn't enough?"

He's been going on and on like this since Lennix walked out this morning. I should be helping my princess move in to her new place, but no. I'm here listening to him bitch me out.

"When are you going to grow the fuck up and stop being such a selfish, childish ass-"

I cut him off.

"What about you?" I shot back. "You go to California to do what Zander? You wanna talk about being selfish? Was it really just to help her pack? Are you sure you didn't just go to 'get your girl'? You didn't give a shit about our deal. I know for a fact you got exactly what you wanted while you were with her. I also know she never would have made the first move. That's not her and you know it." I shouted back.

"What the hell would you know Jaxon? You think you know her so well because you know her favorite movie and food? Big fucking deal man! You. don't. know. her!" Zander is getting more frustrated by the second but I no longer give a shit.

"I know because we've talked about it, ok?!" I yell before catching myself. I repeat in a quieter tone, "we've talked about it." It came out more as a growl and I look down unable to look him in the eyes. I'm pissed that he's putting all of this on me when he clearly broke our deal first.

"What do you mean you've talked about it?" He asked incredulously.

"Exactly what I said. She got back to her apartment from a party one night, she sounded drunk, but she called me... not you Zander! Me! and we stayed up talking until she fell asleep." I blew out a breath trying to calm myself "she said she never knows if either of us are being serious or just being playful flirts. So she would never make the first move for fear that she would fuck up a perfectly good friendship. She also didn't want either of us to feel like she didn't care about them." I shook my head smiling sadly remembering the conversation. "I almost spilled my guts to her that night, but then I remembered the night she spent here how she didn't remember anything after and I didn't want to say it only for her to forget it again." I looked back at his stunned expression. "So I know what you did Zander. You can't lie to me. You didn't just take your shot, you stole mine." I glared at his hurt expression.

I went to walk off to my room before this escalates more, but he stopped me. Blocking my path.

"You don't know what you're talking about and it's not like you were ever going to make your move anyway. You don't have it in you to commit and she's not going to be another fuck and dump, Jaxon!" He glared at me.

I clench my teeth together trying hard not to swing on my best friend. "What do you think last night was supposed to be?" Seeing him falter  just a little made me smirk "I was playing by our rules, Zander. Showing her that I listen. That I care. I didn't have to take advantage of her or the situation, be alone with her to shoot my shot. I was doing it right in clear view. But you..." I scoff "That was a dick move and you know it."

Obviously, it was also a dick move to tell him he was taking advantage of the situation or her because Zander who's usually the calm one of the two of us hit me with a mean right hook to my jaw.

"Fuck you, Jaxon!" He spat turning towards his room and slamming the door.

Yeah, fuck you too, buddy.

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A week passed before either of us even bothered to speak to each other. Our lease is up in the next month so it kind of forced our hand.