I LOVE YOU, TILL MY LAST BREATH [Book 2 KNMKA]

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" Pagkatpos nyo kumain pumunta na kayo sa kwarto nyo, don't forget to brush your teeth. okay?" paalala ni Luhan sa mga anak habang kumakain sila ng dinner.

" Dada, kelan po ulit pupunta dito si daddy Sehun?"

Both Luhan and Jongsuk froze then gave each other a look - one is because of nervousness and the other confuse.

" Pumunta si Sehun dito?"

Luhan nodded slowly.

" Nakalimutan ko ng banggitin sayo, sorry. Saka binisita niya lang yung mga bata"

" Hmm, that's good to know"

Silence. 

Nobody dare to talk again until they finish eating. The kids went to their room leaving the two adults in the kitchen.

" Ako na dito, matulog kana. May pasok ka pa bukas" Luhan said while putting the used plates on the sink.

Ilang minuto na ang nakalipas at ramdam pa din ni Luhan ang prisensya ni Jongsuk. Nakasandal lamang ang nasabing doktor sa lamesa habang pinapanood si Luhan maghugas ng pinggan.

" Kaya ko na to sabi Suk, mauna kana matulog" pag-uulit ni Luhan.

" Comeback to him"

Luhan stopped. 

He turn around to face Jongsuk.

" I know..." Jongsuk said - more like whispered.

" You know what?"

Jongsuk smile.

" You may lie with your words but never with your actions"

" I'm sorry" Luhan muttered. Ayun lang naman ang makakaya niyang sabihin.

Jongsuk nodded, looking at random things around the kitchen while biting his lips to prevent his tears from falling but they were meant to fall.

" I love you" Luhan whispered with teary eyes.

With tears in his eyes, Jongsuk look at Luhan's eyes. He tried to curve his lips upward but the pain is too heavy that it bring it down.

" You 'loved' me" he responded. Emphasizing the 'd' at the end of love.

Luhan was about to say sorry when Jongsuk put his right hand in the air, signaling for the former to stop.

"Don't... don't be sorry. Please, don't say sorry. Don't be sorry because you loved me."

Luhan lowered his head. Too ashame.

" Since when did you know?" Luhan whispered.

" Matagal na. Since you came back"

Muling nagtagpo ang kanilang mga mata ngunit agad na nag-iwas si Luhan ng tingin. Hindi niya kaya. Hindi niya kayang makitang nasasaktan ang lalaking dati niyang minahal dahil sa kaniya.

" The gleams in your eyes that used to only appear whenever you look at me has faded. Your laughs that used to be full of joy now sometimes force. Your smile that used to blind be has now become dull. Clearly you're not happy being with just me anymore but I still accepted you, not because  I want to keep you - not because I want you for myself, but because I want to be with you for the last time."

Jongsuk took a deep breath, wipe his tears before continuing.

" I don't want to let you, so I decided I'll wait... I'll wait for you to drop me."

" I'm sorry"

" Don't. I know that what we've had was real. It's just that, no matter how faith tries to break you and Sehun you will always find each other at the end. Still I didn't regret loving you because you're one of the best thing that happened to me. You and Hannie"

Luhan  hug Jongsuk tight as he continuously whisper sorry but the latter just remain still as he let his tears flow.

That night, they both come into understanding, that it's the end of the road for them. Sila ang pinagtagpo ngunit hindi tinadhana. 

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My computations might be wrong gals, baka may isang chapter pa bago yung epilogue. Within this month din tatapusin ko na to so I can focus on my other stories and PLUUSS gusto ko ulit gumawa ng bagong stories since naiinspired ako ng mga Thai BL ngayon. I'm going to try fluff stories naman kaso sa mga angst lang ata ako magaling lols.

Thank you for reading :)