"I really find it hard to believe that dad is already gone" Alice says as she enters in the kitchen where I'm seated feeding Keam while Sam and Betty are washing the dishes
"I know honey, it happened so first that I also find it hard to believe. But we still have each other and I know we will get through this" I walk to her and wrap her in my arms
"Mum, it's never gonna be the same. He'll never play with me we even make jokes with me like he used to. Who's going to take me to bed when I fall asleep on the couch? Who'll wake me up on Sunday mornings so that I don't get late for church? Mum, it's never going to be the same" she cries so hard and my heart breaks when I see her like this
"I know baby, I know. That's why I am here. Your dad may be gone but I am still here, together we'll overcome this dear. Just trust in God,all will be well" I rub her back but then she pushes my hands away gets away from me
"You don't understand a thing mum. I just lost my dad. The only man who truly loves me. My dad is gone and nothing will ever be okay" she storms out of the kitchen and heads to her room.
Sam and Betty are left in shock at Alice's sudden breakdown. It's been a week already since James was buried. Things have not been easy at all especially with Alice since she has been locking herself up in her room without going out and she hardly eats.
"She is so much hurt by all this" Betty says and we all nod
"I hope she'll come around soon. I hate to see her like this knowing there's nothing I can do to ease her pain. God, why is all this happening?" I sit on the dining table and Sam comes and he has me from the side.
"Don't worry mum. I know she will. I'll go talk to her later" he rubs my arm and I nod in agreement
"Sam I have to go now. I am supposed to meet with mum at a certain shopping mall in town around 11 a.m and it's almost 10 a.m" Betty says as she dries her hands with a towel
"Okay, I'll drop you off in town then. Uh, mum do you need me to pick up anything?"
"No dear, thanks"
"Okay then. Bye, see you later"
"Bye auntie"
"Bye honey. Send my greetings to your mother"
"Sure, I will"
I finish feeding Keam and I take him to my room to change him out of his pajamas.
Afterwards we head to the kitchen to prepare lunch and I hear a knock on the door and when I open it, Jeff is standing there and he gives me a smile as I move aside to let him in.
"Hey Jeff. What brings you here?"
I ask as we walk to the living room and sit.
"I came to see how you guys are doing" he says with a hint of concern in his voice
"We are doing well thank you for the concern" I say as I put Keam down who has been wiggling so he can be put down.
"How's you big man" Jeff rubs his head and Keam walks to him and tries to pull the zipper from his jacket "And how are the kids doing?" He asks shifting his attention from Keam to me
"They're okay except for Alice who hasn't been able to accept anything. She's still in the state of denial" I say as I shake my head, remembering what happened in the morning
" She'll get better with time. We both know that time heals" he looks me in the eyes and I look away from his intense gaze "look, I know it's so early to be asking this and please don't take it the wrong way but, what are you planning to do now that James isn't here anymore?"
"What do you mean by what am I planning to do?"
"You know what I am talking about Eva" he says
"Nothing. I'm just going to bring up my kids. I'll dedicate all my life to my family and make sure I give them the best and ensure that they're always happy"
"What about you. Don't you want to be happy too? Don't you want the best for yourself?"
"They're my happiness. They're the best thing that ever..."
"I know..it may be soon to ask this but have you given a thought about giving us a chance?"
"No. I haven't and I don't see myself doing that. I have a family now and..."
"And what Eva? And what huh? I have been trying to get you back, doing everything and looking like a fool to even get your attention. I know you love me and that's the reason I've been around till now. I thought James was the one who was stoping you from coming back but now that he's gone..." I slap him across the face using all my energy. How dare he talk to me last like that.
"I didn't ask you to wait around. Let me remind you that you're the cause of our separation. If you had explained all your plans before you went ahead and married another woman then we wouldn't be talking about this now. It was all your fault and you only have yourself to blame. Right now I have a family and that is what matters to me" I say raising my voice at him and Keam starts crying. He picks him up and holds him in his hands and Keam stops crying. Just looking at them like this makes me think how cute they look together.
"We already got over that Eva so don't bring it up now. It's not like I'm asking you to leave them. I'm only asking you to give us a chance, please, give us a chance to be happy with each other..."
"Jeff, I'm not having this right now, I have some problems to fix and it would be better if you left" I say taking Keam from his arms and he stands to leave.
"It's okay. You know, I really have tried my best to fight for our love. I just wish you could do the same, maybe use a little energy to make me feel we're in this together. Sometimes I just feel like I'm in love alone and..." He moves closer to me as if to touch my face but I move aside and he
drops his hand and walks away.
How I wish things were different. I have the best family ever but I still fill incomplete. I know it's only him who can complete the puzzle of my heart but then it's no longer about us, I have a family that is looking up to me.
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I Came Back For You
Romance"Did you ever think of us and what we used to be?" "There's not a single day passed that I failed to think of you. It killed me not knowing where to find you.Am glad I have you back"
