"What took you so long Jeff darling?" Sally smiles at me as she gets up from her seat to hug me.
"I'm sorry sweetie, I went somewhere before coming here" I say as I let her go and sit opposite to her
"You went to see her?" She asks and I nod not wanting to look at her in the eyes.
Don't get me wrong, me and her aren't together, it's just that I am tired of always trying to get Eva back but it gets harder each time
"I understand you Jeff. It hurts to see someone you love go away with another person. All the memories and shit.." I see her try to blink tears away and I realize she's talking more about her than me. I walk to her and pull a chair from the next table and seat next to her, she hugs me so tightly as she cries uncontrollably on my chest and seeing her like this makes my hurt break.
She has always been a strong woman but when it comes to love, she becomes so fragile and it's so sad to see her break down like this.
"I know how it feels Sally but one thing for sure is that, you'll find someone who deserves you and who'll love you. Who'll treat you like the queen that you are" I kiss her forehead as I rub her back and I feel her relax and she sits upright
"I'm so sorry for breaking down like that" she wipes her eyes as she tries to put on a smile but I can see pain in her eyes, I lift my thumb and wipe away all the tears and smile at her
"You don't need to be sorry. It's okay to cry when you feel you can no longer hold the pain anymore"
"You really amaze me every time you tell me those words you know? We're both in an almost similar situation but you're always the stronger, you're always the one to calm me and tell me everything will be alright. Telling me how I'll find someone who'll love me and treat me better..why don't you ever take those advices yourself Jeff? It's time you let go of Eva and move on. She already has a family and she's happy. You should do the same Jeff, you're not getting any younger. It's been two years, two good years and you're still chasing after her, someone who has a family.. don't you think it's time you let go and find someone too who'll love you the way you deserve? Please don't get me wrong, I have nothing against Eca, I'm just looking out for you Jeff."
I listen to her but I know I'm not ready to act. How can I let go of something that I hold so dearly. Who gives up on breathing when they know it's their only way to be alive. No matter how hard the breathing gets at times, you still struggle to breathe because you need it.
Eva is like a next breath, I need her like I need it and I even though she's not with me now, I'll keep on fighting for her until I finally have her.
"I can't let go Sally, today I was with her and I saw how she looked at me. She looked at me like she used to when she was mine. There was something in those eyes of hers that gave me hope and I'd rather live with hope than live nothing"
"Until when do you think you can wait for her?" That is something I myself can't even tell but then if I don't wait, what else can I do?
"Until she's comes back to me"
"Jeff can you listen to yourself? You've been chasing the sun all this time and you still want to keep running? You think she'll just wake up one day and leave her family and be with you? Jeff this is not a fairy tale or something, come back to reality" Sally is now getting annoyed and she's almost raising her voice at me. I thank God that there are less people here or else we'd be the center of attraction
"This is my reality Sally and I don't care if you think I'm dreaming or something, I'd rather stay dreaming because in this stupid dream I know that Eva will come back to me. In this stupid dream she'll be mine and I'm going to marry her and we'll live happily ever after"
"You sound pathetic right now Jeff. Stop using your heart to think instead use your brain for once"
"You know, you're stupid Sally, you broke up with your boyfriend because you felt he didn't love you the way you deserved but you keep breaking down every time you think of him. Everytime you see him with another woman. Is that what you call moving on? huh! Is that what you want me to do?, Well, guess what dear, you and I are sailing on the same boat but I'm better because I choose to wait instead of lying to myself that I can move on. You're as stup..." Before I finish my lecture I feel Sally's hand on my cheek only that this time she's not soothing me with her soft palms. She picks up her bag and leaves and I get up to follow her quickly but I remember I haven't payed for the food not eaten thanks to "love". After paying I walk out and see Sally getting into a taxi and she leaves.
I get to my own car and before I start it, my phone rings and Eva's number pops on the screen and I note five texts on my phone.
Two from Eva and three from James
I receive the call only to hear Eva's sobbing voice on the other end and my heart scatters into pieces..
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I Came Back For You
Roman d'amour"Did you ever think of us and what we used to be?" "There's not a single day passed that I failed to think of you. It killed me not knowing where to find you.Am glad I have you back"
