Forbidden - Lashton

Chapter 15 - ashton

It's February twelfth, in the middle of noontime. Three years ago and a month after I had told Luke that I had a girlfriend. I realized that I wasn't having true feelings for this girl I was supposed to soon marry. I thought I did, It turned out that my heart was attracted to someone else. Every night I found myself thinking about them for night's end.

When I woke up, they were all I thought about. When I saw them and interacted with them, I couldn't bring myself to say what I would normally say. I stumbled over my words and I felt so star struck. I felt embarrassed for acting this way. I wouldn't say it was love at first sight but the more I thought about it, I admit. It was love at first sight.

Three years ago and months later after I was introduced to Luke. We were in the secret garden my mother always tended to work on to make it beautiful. It was right before someone interrupted the moment Luke and I was having.

What I intended to say was, "Every time I'm around you, every time you're around me, I get a feeling of arousing butterflies, like they were flying in my stomach. Do you know what they mean?"

I never told him what I was about to finish. I left him off like that wondering what I was gonna say.

After dinner with my father, It got me into thinking more. He always told me the same old, same old about being reaching a high expectation for being the next king. I wasn't ready for that dream yet. I did end up running away for hours at night but I always came back home. I didn't want to leave and run away for good, away from this life that I never once dreamed about as a child. I came back every time because there was someone special in my life I couldn't leave behind. I used to look down on this someone, I wanted nothing to do with him but it was clear as a bell that either one of us had to get along with each other otherwise one of us was going to be killed in action because of our stubbornness arguments.

When we kissed, I knew something off. I knew better than to have a crush on someone who was the same gender as me.

I couldn't help it.

He was all I could ever think about that day, the day after, and the day after that. He was always with me and all I wanted to do was be closer than him. Not an inch apart.

Everyone grew suspicious of us. The way we would eye each other from across the room. The way we smiled at each other, of course it would catch people's attention. I didn't want that. I didn't want one of us to suffer so I kept a low profile.

That's when I got myself a girlfriend. Don't get me wrong, she's really nice and pretty. She's everyone anyone would dream about. I even at one point tried to force myself to like her but I couldn't.

At the back of mind whenever we kissed, I always thought of someone who we too shared a kiss.

It was Luke.

He was the one at the back of my mind constantly. His natural blonde hair and his blue eyes.

He was always the one I ended up trying to find in a room.

He was always there.

He smiled at me when I felt low.

He hugged me when I was at my worst.

He held my hand when no one was looking.

He kissed me when we were alone.

Everything I found about him was perfection. There would never be someone like him in the world. He's his own person and I absolutely love that about him.

We've been dating ever since. It's been really hard to keep it a secret. I've been the center of attention but we always made a way for it to work out.