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V23

Finals came and we were assembled at the oval.

"We'll be playing against Vet Med and Educ today. Kapag nanalo tayo laban sa Vet Med then we will play against the Educ for the win." Tumango lang kami at nagpatuloy sa pakikinig kay Maxime.

I am really spacing out right now because of what happened yesterday.

"Mariano?" Nagulat naman ako ng marinig ang apilyedo ko kung kaya at napatingala ako sa kanya ng tumapat s'ya sa akin.

"What?"

"Just play as the setter for now." Tumango na lang ako sa kaniya dahil 'yun naman talaga ang plano ko muna.

"Herrera, 'wag ka muna makipag-switch kay Mariano just stay put as a libero." We nodded and understand Del Torre's concern about the play.

"Our spikers will still remain and if possible, Mariano you set the ball to them for the attacks," we listened to her team plan as usual.

Hindi na ako nakialam pa sa mga plano niya dahil ayaw ko munang magsalita.

"The game will start in 15 minutes from now, let's go." Sumunod na lang kami sa kaniya papuntang gym. Karrie and Maycah, as usual ay kinukulit na naman ako kay Alder.

"Let's just focus on the game!" I hissed to the two of them but they're so persistent.

"Kausapin mo na kasi si baby Alder, Yrra. Kami ang kinukulit." Napakunot noo ako sa sinabi ni Karrie.

At bakit parang kasalanan ko pa?

"What do you mean?" Biglang sumakit ang ulo ko dahil sa kakulitan nilang dalawa at sumasabay pa talaga si Alder.

"Kanina pa s'ya nangungulit sa amin na sabihin sa'yo na kausapin mo na s'ya. Nag-away ba kayo?" tanong ni Maycah.

"I don't want to talk about him, please," I sounded desperate as I said the word please to them, they just sighed and never talked again.

I don't want to talk about him cuz everything feels like new to me. Every word that he said stayed on my mind. Hindi ko makalimutan iyon kahit gaano ko kagustong kalimutan.

I started questioning myself again. Nakakasakal ba ako?

Am I being too much? Hindi ba ako bagay sa mga relasyon na ganoon?

Nakakasira ng ulo.

Sabi ko nga kay Alder ay hindi ako galit pero masakit. Hindi ibig sabihin na hindi ako galit ay hindi na masakit. I want to focus on the game right now para hindi na ako maka-agrabyado ng iba. It would be for the better. Tama sila na kahit na sabihin kong laro lamang ang lahat ay hindi sila maniniwala, as long as it me who gave the reason for it.

When it comes to me, every reason I have is always invalid. That's how selective people were. Kahit wala kang ginawa sa kanila, their personal issues and hatred will always be their chosen track to hate me. Sabi ko nga, I am not born to please them. I please myself and no one.

Hindi ako nabuhay para pakinggan lahat ng mga insulto nila o kung ano mang gusto nilang sabihin sa akin. I don't mind and it does not matter. Hindi naman nila ikakaunlad ang pagpuna at pagmuhi sa akin and vice versa.

We started the game and as usual ay nanalo kami sa first set. I played the role of a setter and I'm glad that I only focused my system on the game. I ignored the presence of the crowd and Alder who is now watching me from a far.

"Last set na, we need to win the game," reminder ni Del Torre sa amin at binigyan kami ng gatorade isa-isa.

We lost the second and the third set but we won the fourth set. Now is the fifth set. Nakaramdam ako ng pagkahilo konti dahil walang nag-sub sa akin kanina. Marquez is still injured and is with the basketball team again beside Alder. I didn't glance on their side to avoid getting poor judgments.