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EPILOGUE

Mabigat ang pakiramdam kong nakatitig sa lapida kasabay ng pag-ihip ng malamig na simoy ng hangin.

I stares on her name and placed the flower as I lit the candle beside it.

I want to say sorry for everything that I and we did to her and to her family.

We took justice into our own hands and I am the definition of it. That we took life as life as it is, in a dark and full of blood in our hands. We ended up seeking for our own vengeance that in the end, we ended up wishing for our lives not to end.

We are on the same page of our lives where we share the same darkness because of the clash of our families. My family took down their company and the vengeance started.

I was afraid to kill again cuz I know, she's just like me. Longing for a family.

I stayed for more minutes in there silently praying. I prayed that, she'll forgive me. I have sinned, I did a lot of it.

The corner of my eyes gets watery when I uttered my apology. "I'm sorry for everything," I whispered to the air and finally, turn my back on her graveyard.

I don't want to keep this hard feelings on her for so long, she's now dead and I want her to be in peace as I am.

Alam kong huli na ang paghingi ng tawad sa kaniya gayong wala na siya. But I still want to apologized cuz I am guilty and I needed to. Hindi lang ako ang nawalan kung hindi ay siya rin.

I took a choice where everything was shut. I took a choice where I partly want her dead. I wished for her to die.

But part of me is saying, I didn't.

I beep my Sedan and drove it to the city. Familiar environment and yet I don't feel the familiarities anymore.

I miss the province. I heaved a sigh and drove fast to the nearest mall.

I need to buy a gift. It's his birthday today. I want to make peace with him too.

Pagtapak ko pa lang sa loob ng mall ay nailang na ako sa titig ng mga kalalakihan kahit may mga kasama silang mga kasintahan nila. Napailing na lang ako ng makatanggap ng ilang masasamang tingin.

Hays. I didn't even do anything but to step inside the mall. Don't tell me ay hindi na ako pwede sa mga ganitong lugar? Napabuntong hininga na lang ako at nagdiretsong Men's botique.

I tried to look for his taste but I can't seem to find any specific things that he'll like. So much effort for this.

I went to the long sleeves areas because I've seen him wear such things way back then. My hands caress the dress and I can't seem to like it.

Marami na s'ya nito.

Napailing na lang ako at lumabas sa botique na 'yon. Ang sunod kong pinuntahan ay ang Perfume Collection near the penshoppe.

I stares at the products and quite amazed by the bottle designs. Ang gara!

Nagii-spray pa ako ng mga samples kaya mas naengganyo pa ako. Nalipat ang tingin ko sa Bleu de Chanel at kinuha iyon.

The bottle looks manly and simply attractive.

"Excuse me, can I have a tester for this one?" I asked the sales lady.

"Yes, Ma'am. In a minute, please." I nodded and waited for her to search for the tester. Hindi ko na rin binitawan pa ang pabango dahil nag-iisa na lang iyon.

After the sales lady gave me the tester, I sprayed it on my wrist and smell for it.

Napapikit ako ng malanghap ang mabangong panlalaking amoy. The combination of mint, lemon and pink pepper. I like it. Not strong and smells manly. Nakakaadik ang amoy and hindi rin mabilis maglaho ang bango.