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Pagkapasok ko pa lang sa university ay napapatingin na agad sila sa akin at magbubulungan but I didn't mind though.

Hindi ko na problema ang problema nila sa akin.

Gano'n naman ang mga tao. They will judge you according to what preference suits their mind and curiosity even if they didn't know they're judging poorly.

The world is full of unfair things.

Naglakad ako sa hallway hindi iniinda ang mga tingin at bulungan nila. I arrived at our classroom and all my classmates were obviously avoiding any of my eye contact. They even transfer another seat as I sat near them.

Tahimik ang classroom simula ng pumasok ako and I wouldn't mind the silence. I prefer it more now. Mas may panahon pa ako para makapag-isip ng maayos. I was just staring at the door when Karrie, Maycah and Nicole entered.

I was just staring at them and Nicole nodded to me as she dragged the two girls at their seat... far from me. I understand them. Sino nga naman ang proud na makatabi ang isang tulad ko na maraming issue at nakapatay na?

The class started as I start being a villain bitch.

The class went on and as expected no one tried to talk nor come near me and it felt more surreal. Bumabalik na sa dati ang lahat.

Every damn time that I transfer to another school, these things happens to me and I ended up looking for another university. I got kick out because of the reason they always say as an excuse.

I have an attitude problem.

After the Chemistry class I decided to stay at the back of the Lab. Papasok na lang kapag limang minuto na lang at klase na.

As usual, the crowds avoided me as I wore my blank poker face and my attitude, they always believed in. Bitch mode.

Naglakad ako at hawak ang bag pack ng mahigpit ng mamataan ko ang grupo nila Alder. They're walking at the same catwalk as I am. Kinakabahang naglakad ako at bahala na kung ano ang mangyari, after all I have my own issue and knows about it.

Nakita ko ang gulat sa mga mukha nila ng makita ako na makakasalubong nila. I started to feel nervousness and my heart twisting in pain as I looked at them trying to avoid any interaction from me.

I am no manhid but fuck! Ba't ang sakit?

Sana tinuloy ko na lang ang pag-iwas sa kanila siguro nang una pa lang para hindi ito nangyayari sa akin.

I felt betrayed for being alone like this!

Kahit sabihin kong naiintindihan ko sila but my feelings says otherwise.

I felt betrayed because I thought friends intend to understand each other... I thought friends don't leave each other even if the world goes down... maybe I thought too high that I forgot to think on the other side.

May mga taong magkaibigan pero 'di nagtatagal at may mga magkakaibigan na pinagtitibay ng panahon.

I wanted to lash out but who am I, right?

I choose to be in this turning page of my life. Where I chose to be alone but wanting them to be on my side.

At hinding-hindi iyon mangyayari dahil ayaw kong magpaliwanag sa kanila. I don't want them to understand and be on my side just because I'll explain my tragedy. I want them on my side cuz they want me too.

Bago pa sila tumalikod sa akin at humanap ng ibang dadaanan ay binilisan ko ang lakad ko at nilagpasan sila... not showing any emotion in my eyes. I just got an eye contact with Noah for a second and broke the gaze afterwards.