Spiking My Heart To Yours

Chapter 31

"So gano'n na lang 'yun? Aalis ka nalang nang ganu'n-ganu'n na lang?" napa-upo ako sa sahig habang patuloy parin ang pag-agos ng mga luha na mula sa aking mga mata.

"Abby, we both know na hindi ako 'yung nag-desisyon nito 'di ba? Kung ako lang, no, kung kaya ko lang, hindi ako aalis, hindi kita iiwan. Pero Abby, I don't have a choice..."

Once I heard it, I immediately scoffed and squinted my eyes to the person in front of me. "No, you do have a choice! Pwede mo naman akong hindi iwan pero heto ka ngayon at iiwan ako!" binuhos ko na ang lahat ng natitirang lakas ko para sabihin 'yon at muling umiyak.

"I'm sorry..."

Naramdaman ko ang papalayong padyak ng mga paa nito kaya na-alarma ako.

Hindi...

Hindi pwede...

"NO!!"

Gulat na nagising ako mula sa aking panaginip at habol-hiningang kinapa ang aking dibdib habang nakatitig lamang sa kisame ng aking kwarto.

That dream... Napanaginipan ko na naman ang isa sa pinaka-malungkot na pangyayaring iyon sa buhay ko.

Mula yata nang umamin ako kay Sela at binigyan ako nito ng permisong ligawan siya ay walang araw o linggo na hindi ko napapanaginipan ang pangyayaring iyon. Pero napakatagal na nu'ng pangyayaring 'yun.

Hindi kaya...?

No, that can't be. Malayo na siya at hindi na kami mag-kikita pa. Hindi ko na siya makikita pa lalo na't ngayon na paulit-ulit lang na nag-faflashback sa isip ko 'yung mga nangyari no'ng araw na iyon.

I'm not being honest if I say that I'm not affected by that scene anymore. By that particular scene...

It still haunts me. It's still haunting me everytime I passed by to our favorite spots and whenever something reminds me of our happy memories back then...our past.

Yes, past is past. Kalimutan mo na 'yang pag-iiisip mo Abelaine kasi hindi 'yan makakabuti sa panliligaw mo kay Marsela.

Right. For now, family, studies, friends, and Marsela are my number one priorities.

I washed out the thought of earlier in my head and stand up from my bed. I checked the digital clock above my study table and it's 8:30 am already.

Siguro gising na siya by this time.

I got my phone under my pillow and stretched out for a bit before typing a message to her.

LOML
[Love Of My Life]

Good morning to my beautiful princess! Don't skip your breakfast or else...

sent at 8:32 am✔

Tumayo na ako't kinuha ang towel sa drawer ko at nag-simulang mag-lakad papunta sa cr ng kwarto ko para mag-hilamos at mag-toothbrush.

Ngunit wala pang ilang minuto ay nag-vibrate na ang phone ko mula sa aking bulsa kaya kinuha ko ito at natawa naman ako sa nakita.

Sela replied to my text,

Or else what?

Good morning too, btw.

Or else I'm the one to feed you with my love hahaha

HA HA HA

corny 🙄

aww, okay nvm.

hahaha. sige na, I'll just help mom to prepare our breakfast. Bye!

oh, is that so? okay. Imma take a shower also. Bye, my future wife! Love you! :))

seen

After confirming that she'd already seen my last message, I proceeded on doing my morning routine with a smile plastered on my beautiful face.

Saturday ngayon at wala muna kaming training sabi ni coach dahil isang buwan na din mula nang mag-training ulit kami pagkatapos ng tune-up game namin against another university.

And since it's Saturday, it also means saturdate! Hahaha. I think I am really the happiest just by talking about this 'date' thing with my lovely Marsela.

I asked her out last night when I was driving her home and she thought about it for a while and then she said yes after. But she said she'll also consider what her parents would say once she told them about it and I immediately agree 'cause after all, she's still their one and only baby and I respect that.

I am really happy about because it's also our first official date since we're mu. Cliché man pakinggan pero after that night, mas lumalim pa 'yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.

Flashback

"Marsela Mari Guia..." I caresses both of her cheeks and look at her intently in the eyes.

"Lasing man ako o hindi, maybe my mind won't recognize you. Pero alam ko...

Alam nating pareho na pangalan mo lang ang 'sinisigaw ng puso ko."

Kitang-kita ang muling pag-agos ng luha nito sa saya kaya naman niyakap ko na lang siya para matigil na din siya sa pag-iyak niya.

"Shhh, it's okay. Sorry kung ngayon ko lang nagawang umamin sa nararamdaman ko.. N-Natakot lang nama--"

"Nakakainis ka!" ramdam ko ang ilang hampas nito sa dibdib ko kaya naman natatawa kong hiniwalay ito sa katawan ko at tsaka ko tinitigan siya.

She's still crying but I know this time, it's tears of joy so I chuckle at her cuteness.

"Oh? Now, you're laughing at me!" she's now glaring at me while wiping her tears so I went in front of her and wipe it using my own hands.

"Shhh, stop crying will you? It broke my heart when I see my princess crying. Hush now... I love you." I brought her in my arms and locked her in my embrace.

I felt her stiffen at my sudden words.

"A-Anong sabi mo...?" I heard her say.

I broke the hug and stared at her in confusion before I speak, "I...love you?"

She cried again and that made me panic so I immediately soothed her and asked what's the problem.

"B-Bakit? May m-mali ba sa sinabi ko?" I asked in worry.

Sa wakas ay medyo tumahan na ito kaya nakahinga ako ng maluwag, "N-Nothing.. Masaya lang ako 'cause our feelings are mutual, Abby."

Para akong pinagbagsakan ng malamig na tubig dahil sa narinig ako.

Ano daw?

"Our f-feelings are mutual? S-So, tayo na?" nabatukan naman ako nito dahil sa biglang tanong ko.

"Sira. Anong tayo na? You know that I'm not that kind of easy to get woman. Manligaw ka muna 'no." masungit na sabi nito.

"Sabi ko nga." nagkakamot-batok na tugon ko.

End Of Flashback

And that's how that night turns out.