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a serious chat

This is me being serious right now

The past week or so, I may have been slightly on art block and writer's block, but it wasn't anything serious and I could easily pick up a pencil and draw or sit down and write if I wanted to. and I did work some on a story, that one being the Destiny of the Decades thing, with the next update coming up towards the end of the month. I'm not too worried about it though

But if I'm being honest, though I could easily, as I said, sit down and write, I really don't want to

I'm sure all of you are aware of what's been happening in the US right now, and I myself can't help but feel utterly helpless and upset about everything. The fact there are African American men, women, and children living in todays society, growing up in a world where they are marginalized and oppressed truly saddens me.
My driver's ed teacher, when I was taking my first driving lesson today, told me about how he once got pulled over as a teen for swerving. He had explained to the officer that he just panicked when turning into the wrong lane and seeing the cop had scared him. My driver's ed teacher is a white male. The cop let him off with a warning. What would have happened if he were a black man? He would've gotten a ticket, or worse. One of my brother's old friends, I'm not sure if he is friends with him today, but he was taught as an African American child to keep his hands on the wheel when being pulled over by a cop and to speak politely and respectively no matter how they treat him...

And with all these riots, where people are getting run over by cop cars, where rubber bullets are being shot at innocent crowds and tear gas is being dropped on peaceful protesters, where a line of white people band together to protect their fellow black Americans, where an innocent man lost his life due to suffocation by police and cops are out here wearing shirts that read "I Can Breathe," where so much is happening and I want to speak out and help but I can't because I'm young and white and privileged, you can imagine that writing something such as a simple fanfiction story is not exactly on my mind right now

So I'll just be here, biting my fingernails and anxiously watching on, trying to hide how scared and sorry I am for my fellow Americans being attacked in the streets. I myself do not live in a big town where this stuff is happening, so I could not imagine what it is like in places where riots are high. But I do wish for all of you who are to have strength and stand your ground. This is not a war, this is a body's immune system reacting to a disease, a disease that has been here for centuries and has yet to be eradicated

I hope you all understand and aren't disappointed that I won't be uploading any of my stories anytime soon. I may work some on Destiny of the Decades since it has a schedule I would like to stick with, but that probably won't be touched much right now around this time. Again, I could technically sit down and write something easily, but there's just this ache in my stomach that's telling me I really truly absolutely shouldn't

Once again, stay strong Americans. Black Lives Matter.