Earphone Buddies | J.J.K (Complete)

Dear Diary (ep 36)

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4/3/2020

Dear Diary,

Oh my gosh that's so cringy lol. I can't really speak at the moment, so I figured I'd document being sick. IDK okay I'm bored. I've had my BTS and K-Pop playlists playing non-stop when I'm up, doing not much honestly... It's mostly some sketching and reading FFs. I found this story called Worst Story On Wattpad and if my abs didn't already hurt from coughing so much, they would've been sore from laughing so much. I also read one called Violin about Seo Changbin and another called Attention, which is about Lee Felix. I also read some Yeonjun books, but none of them really hit home, you know? They were just... good. Not fantastic. I really wish I could find some new fantastic books... like occamy's books, those are fantastic. But it doesn't seem like anyone else is quite as good... or at least not that I've found.

Anyway, I've been struggling against a cough, sore throat, stuffy nose, and just general exhaustion. Every time I wake up I cough and cough, and I can't even breathe through one nostril. It SUCKS. My abs hurt like the Devil's been punching me over and over. Every time I stretch or cough or laugh or do anything, it aches really badly and I just want to dieeeeee. I don't actually mean that, duh, but I hurt. And I can't talk cause my throat aches so darn much, I swear it's like dozens of tiny men are attacking me with chainsaws from inside my esophagus.

I've mostly been eating soups and other softer foods that I can easily put down my throat without it feeling like aforementioned chainsaws. Or at least it feels more like a weed whacker instead. I guess that's good? I don't know anymore. After Jungkook left when Kat got home two days ago, he never came back, but he calls me as often as he can while he also tries not to get sick off of me. I understand why he's staying away, but I miss him a lot. It's like he went back to America. And the worst thing is, he's going on tour next month and he'll be away for like... AGES. Although the Love Yourself tour lasted fourteen months, and this one is only until August... I don't really want to consider it, since I certainly can't come around the world with them. I have a job and school, not to mention that it would cost a lot to bring me along. I don't want to burden anyone.

I also re-watched Crazy Rich Asians while I've been in the house. I was supposed to go to work this week, but JYP and I agreed I shouldn't get their idols and trainees sick. I could seriously endanger them. Kat has been in and out a lot going to work and then her two classes that are still going. Plus she has to go out and get groceries for both of us on top of everything I used to do. I wish I could help, but I just don't have the energy. Anyway, I watched some movies, listened to music, read both FFs and real books, sketched, and slept. Not much else.

I really want to be more creative and like make some stuff, I just don't know what to make. It seems like every idea I have is really stupid and I just... I'm not finding an idea I'm really excited about. I'm sure we'll get there though, so I'll just keep thinking until I find one. Kat suggested I try digital art, but I find it more difficult to find the right brush digitally. They all have weird textures on them that I don't notice on normal pencils and such. It's confusing, so I just stick to my normal stuff, like colored pencils and black and white drawings. Although I must admit that it's simpler to make symmetrical and perfect shapes digitally.