Sana Pwede Tayo ✔ [Completed]

42th

His side

Chris Point of view

FUCK! Paulit-ulit kong sinisisi ang sarili ko kung bakit ako nagsinungaling sa kanya.God knows how much I love her but then, damn! Ang duwag duwag ko! I want to die now.Hindi naman talaga totoo lahat ng sinabi ko sa kanya, hindi totoong hindi ko sya mahal.I only did it because I don't want her to be kicked out by the school.

"Mr. Buenavista," bati ko nung araw na pinatawag nya ako, kaharap ko ang may-ari ng school. He invited me to go with him, we go to bar like just hanging out.

"Don't be so formal, I just want to talk to you, lalaki sa lalaki." aniya. "I know you love her, but. My wife is the dean of the school and whether you like it or not, once that issue proven true,I'm sorry Christian,She will be kicked out by the school." Dagdag nya na ikinaikot ng utak ko.

"Noon pa man,pangarap ko na talagang mag-aral sa BLU, ang ganda kasi talaga doon. Hindi ko nga akalaing dun ka pala nagtuturo!" Her voice echoes on my head.

Damn! Kaya ko iyon ginawa, kasi alam ko. Alam kong handang handa syang ipaglaban ito.

Hours before Sofia came on my apartment,Patricia confronted me there.

"Christian, Please come back to me, kung ayaw mong ipakalat ko lahat ng larawang hawak ko na naghahalikan kayo! If that happens, she will be out of the school and you will lost your job." She confidently say then laugh devilishly.

"Patricia, Please.Dont do this,We are done." I said

"No way! Mark my words Christian,If this day ends with not breaking up on her. You'll see." Aniya at tumalikod na at pumunta sa hamba ng pintuan.

"Patricia!Stop pestering me! I love her!So,stop pestering us!" I shout. She quickly glance at me.

"Oh I'm sorry, the pest loves you so much." She chuckled. "Akin ka lang, Sa akin ka lang,Christian. Sa.Akin." She added then left my apartment.

Gulong-gulo ang utak ko kaya ko iyon nasabi kay Sofia, Kilala ko si Patricia. Alam kong,kung ano ang gusto nya, makukuha nya, kung ano ang sinabi nya, gagawin nya. Kaya natakot ako, Handa akong iwanan ang trabaho ko pero ayokong mapatalsik sya sa paaralan na iyon. Hindi pwede! Pangarap nyang mag-aral doon, kakayanin ko bang bawian sya ng pangarap?Hell,no!

My heart broke into pieces as I saw her tears falling after saying hurtful lies to her. I tried to follow her but someone else took her, someone else covered her with umbrella and a towel. That someone, possibly the someone can make her heart at ease. It's like my heart are stabbed by a million knives by that thought.

Patricia's lips touch mine, I kissed her back with the thought that this is Sofia, I was so numb to think wise!

"I'm here that day when you said it all to her" Patricia said then laugh. "So nakuha mo na pala,huh?" She asked.

Sumasakit ang sentido ko sa mga sinasabi nya.

"Shut up!" Agap ko

"Whoa! Hindi ko iyon akalain! Well, sino bang mas masarap sa aming dalawa? Sinong mas magaling?" She asked again.

"You know what Patricia? Stop it! Ginawa ko na ang gusto mo! Kahit labag sa kalooban ko, kahit masakit sa puso ko kasi alam kong kasinungalingan lahat ng sinabi ko, Hindi ba dapat maging masaya ka na lang at pabayaan ako? Ano pa bang gusto mo?" I said then I felt my tears fall because of hatred and pain.

"I want you, Christian.I want you" She declared

"But I don't want you. Now, Leave, Patricia-"

"No!" Putol nya.

"Leave! Or else I'll throw you out of my apartment!" Sigaw ko kaya bigla syang tumakbo palabas.

Ngayon, lahat ng pagsisisi naramdaman ko. Ilang linggo matapos nun nabalitaan kong umalis sya, mas lalong nadurog ang puso ko. Durog na durog.

She left me, I deserved it anyway, In all of the words I've thrown to her? She leave bearing all the pain.Mas mabuti nalang palang hindi ko iyon sinabi aalis din pala sya. But if I told her the truth,will she leave? Ofcourse not Jacob but for sure,She will be kicked out by the dean. Tama lang din ang desisyon ko. Masakit pero tama.

Siguro pagkabalik nya,Kung babalik pa. Kung sakaling bumalik sya, I know, She will for sure forgotten me. She doesn't deserve someone as weak as me. Hindi nya deserve ang kaduwagan ko. Siguro, paulit-ulit ko itong pagsisihan, Pero thankful parin ako na for once, I felt her love, for once in my life, I have her. Even if it's just for once.

I am very numb of all the pain. I regret every words I've thrown to her, if only I could bring back the time, I would rather fight for us, I would rather leave my profession for her.

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