Sana Pwede Tayo ✔ [Completed]

64th

Guilt

"Suit yourselves here."Sabi ni Noah in the middle of eating our lunch. Apat lang kaming kumakain rito. Katabi ko si Chris sa harapan naman namin si Kendrick at Noah.Nasa beach house parin daw sina Zac at ang kambal, hindi na daw sila nag abalang pumunta rito,Pinadalhan lang ako ni Mela ng mga damit kahapon which is I'm thankful because I don't have any clothes or dress here. "Kami na ni Kendrick ang bahala sa inyo." Dagdag ni Noah.

I don't know how to thank them, In spite of danger, they still helping us. Malaki ang utang na loob ko sa kanila, kung hindi nila ako iniligtas malamang sa malamang mamatay na siguro ako. Sa mukha palang ni Patricia halatang halata na kaya nyang pumatay ng tao.

"Maraming salamat talaga sa inyo, Hindi ko alam kung paano ko kayo pasasalamatan."I said while sipping on the pineapple juice.

"Your welcome."

Namataan ko si Kendrick na bahagyang nagpupunas ng tissue sa kanyang bibig. Like me, he seems done eating.

"By the way guys, Pinapaala ko lang 'wag nyong I o-on ang phone nyo kahit anong mangyari kasi baka ma trace nila tayo."Kendrick remarked. Agree ako dito, Wala na naman akong phone dahil naiwan sa room kung saan ako nakakulong.

"It's okay, Tito Nicolas and Sofia's family are safe.Though, I'm checking them from time to time."Nakahinga ako ng maluwang sa sinabi ni Noah.

It was a stormy September noon, The breezing cold winds are telling me that rain is coming.And I'm right, umuulan na nga.I hugged my knees tightly. Nakayukong nakaupo sa kama, habang pinagmamasdan ang kurtina sa bintana na banayad na sumasayaw dahil sa hangin.

I don't know but I felt my heart had tightened.I miss my family,Si Mamay, Papay na alam kung hindi pa nga natatapos ang pag-aalala nila sa hotel namin na nasunog ay may panibago na naman silang aalahanin, I don't want them worry but what can I do? Si Pia na alam kung natatakot narin iyon, matatakutin pa naman ang batang iyon. Syaka, she's a highschool consistent honor student and because of this, marami na syang namiss na klase. Damn!

Yes, I know they are safe, I believed in Noah. Pero hanggang kailan?Hanggang kailan namin pagtataguan si Patricia at Daniel?Hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko. Masaya ako sa piling ni Chris kahit ilang beses ko na syang iniyakan pero mahal na mahal ko sya. Should I let him go and offer myself to Daniel? No, I will not do that..No matter how I miss my family, I need to be strong. I need to be patient.

Umayos ako ng pagkakaupo dahil sa pag bukas ng pinto. Iniluwa nito si Chris na may dalang dalawang tasa. "Uminom ka muna ng kape, medyo malamig ang panahon."He handed me the coffee, I nodded and took it.

"Are you okay?"he asked after the minutes of silence.

"Yes, I'm fine."

"Please tell me what you're thinking."He put his coffee on the side table and he turned his full attention to me. "Tell me, Nana."He said while slowly massaging my hair.

My heart calmed at that.I'm right, I can't just let go the man that I love the most. I can't... Like before, I need to fight.

"Uhm. It's just that I miss my family." I spoke and drink again a coffee.Medyo naibsan ang lamig saking katawan dahil sa init na dulot ng kape."Nababahala rin ako, Baka kung ano pang mangyari kina Ej,"

Umusog sya ng kunti sakin dahilan para mawala ang space na nakapagitna samin kanina. He held my chin so I gently turned my gazed on him. He gave me a soft devouring kisses on my lips.All I could do is to feel it and kiss him back. Nang masyado nang lumalim ang halik nya bahagya akong nadala dahilan para mabitawan ko ang kapeng dala ko at aksidenteng natapon sa paa nya kaya naputol ang aming halikan. "Fuck!"

"Oh my god!I'm sorry Chris!"I panicked. I kneel, kinuha ko ang basahan at pinunasan ang kanyang paa, damn!Nakapaa pa naman sya. Inalalayan nya ako upang makabalik sa dati kong inuupuan.

He kissed me on my forehead, and again,I closed my eyes felt calmed. "I'm okay, Baby."

Huminga ako ng malalim habang inihahanda ang ibang rekados.Andito ako sa kusina habang tinutulungan si Ashira sa pagluluto ng adobo.Deafening silence filled the air.Kanina paglabas namin sa kwarto ni Chris ay sya namang pagdating ni Doctora,And if I'm not just assuming she looks mad at me,I never seen her smiled at me since she came.

"Uhm. Doctora," I stiffened.

She stopped from chopping the meat and turned her head on me. "Just call me Ash."She still so cold as ice.

Baka naman ganyan na talaga sya,Sofia

"A-ash. G-galit ka ba?"nauutal kong tanong.

She sighed heavily and touch her forehead like she's having a big problem then she held my hand that made me shocked. "I'm sorry if I'm being harsh and rude to you, Sofia."She pointed out the chair kaya naupo kami roon. Maaga pa naman at syaka mukhang busy din ang boys sa pagchichikahan.

"To tell you honestly, Hindi ko alam kung magagalit ba ako sa inyo o hindi, Sadya talagang napakabait na tao nang asawa ko."she laugh mockingly and looked disappointed. "And I love him, very very much. At hindi ko makakaya kung may mangyayayaring masama sa kanya,Hindi ko kakayanin."A lonely tears pooled from her eyes that made my heart broke. I suddenly felt guilty.

"I'm sorry for bringing your husband in this situation" That's all I could say.

"No, it's not your fault though,Pero sa totoo lang, hindi ko gusto ang nakikita ko ngayon, masyado nang nagiging matulungin at mabait ang asawa ko at natatakot akong madamay sya sa gulo nyo."My throat went dry at what she say. "Pero alam ko namang hindi ko sya kayang pigilan sa pagtulong sa kaibigan nya, Sa inyo. Pero kung kaya ng konsensya mong may buhay na mawala nang dahil sa gulo ng pag-iibigan nyo, Ikaw ang bahala." Mas lalong bumigat ang dibdib ko. Hindi ko kaya to, Hindi.

Guilt filled my thoughts, mind, heart and soul.

She's right, We might drag Noah's life to death.I can't blame her, She's his wife, She all have the rights to tell it to me.Damn!I don't really know what to do anymore. I don't know!If only my conscience let me,I'll probably suicide to end this agony. But I wouldn't do it, I have a family and friends who are waiting for me.

Should we end this hide and seek game?

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