Beauty From The Pain. (On-Going)

CHAPTER 56

A/N: Belated gift for my birthday. Lol.

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AMARA'S POV

'Fucking mind. Good heavens! Oh my God.'

While taking a shower here inside the room where Claire put me, I can feel that I'm already sobber. Hindi mawala sa isip ko 'yong ginawa sa'kin ni Miguel kanina't hinayaan ko lang siya. Damn. I even initiated him to enter two fingers inside me! Holy shit. It was good, actually, it was so good despite the pain. Kapag na-iimagine ko 'yon, hindi na kilabot nararamdaman ko, eh.

I am goddamn happy now and I do know why.

"He said he loves me."- I whispered as the water continuously dripping all over my body.

Just the thought of his words a while ago were making me feel butterflies inside my stomach. Napakagat ako sa labi nang maalala kong ginantihan ko rin 'yong pagsabi niya sa'king mahal niya ako. Oh God. Is that for real? After what I've done and said to him when he's trying to beg for me to come back to his life? Am I that special to him?

The smile on my face faded when I exited the bathroom because I saw Miguel seating on the single couch near the bed, probably waiting for me. Hindi pa pala siya lumabas at ginawa nga 'yong sinabi niyang hihintayin niya ako dito. My heart beats faster when our eyes gazed at each other, until I saw him swallowed and looked away upon seeing me wearing a robe. Doon ko lang naalala na wala pa pala akong suot panloob, tanging bathrobe lang.

"Lapit."- tumayo siya bigla para lumapit sa kama, kung saan nakapatong 'yong pair of pajamas ko pati 'yong undergarments.

Napakagat ako sa labi habang naglalakad palapit sa kaniya dahil nakakaramdam pa rin ako ng hiya. Look, three freaking years ago we broke up, and then after another three years we met again. I treated him like a stranger, while he's treating me great as if I'm still his girlfriend but I'm actually not. Tapos ngayon, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko o kung saan ako magsisimula para kausapin siya.

Damn. Thanks to the liquor earlier, which gave me a little bit of confidence.

"What the hell? Are you literally going to dress me up?"- I clearly asked him, dahil tinapat niya sa'kin 'yong panty ko.

"Ah, yes? Because you're giving me a massive boner ever since I kissed you inside this room. And, until now, that bud down there was and still arouses because of you. Do you want to see it, Ma'am?"- dere-deretsong sagot niya.

My lips parted as I quickly shook my head.

"Good."- masungit niya akong inirapan para yumuko ng konti at pumantay sa legs ko 'yong undies na hawak niya.

As if I have a choice to complain to him, so, I had to obliged on what he wants before I could meet his bud. Pagkasuot niya sa'kin ng panty, siya rin 'yong naghook sa brassiere ko, pati sa pajamas. Binlow dry niya rin 'yong buhok ko habang naka-upo kami sa kama, kaya no'ng nakatalikod ako sa kaniya medyo nakangiti ako.

'He's handling me like a baby, again.'

I had to face him after brushing my hair, but, I don't know what to say. I don't want to start a conversation after what we did a while ago.

"Kiss me. I missed you so damn much, you know?"- he broke the silence. Awtomatikong nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya.

Hindi ko alam kung na-miss niya ba ako dahil naghiwalay kami o dahil sa umalis siya ng Tarlac agad. He's not straight to the point, that's why.

"W-What? Do I really have to do that?"- mahinang sambit ko.

"Hindi mo ba ako na-miss?"- the side of his lips rose.